My experience with drinking in relation to my SA has been this-
when buzzed- I usually feel happy and am much more sociable than normal. I can even take the lead in big group conversations! At this stage,
when drunk-I get more assertive, even aggressive, than I normally am (I am normally very conciliatory). I'll do risky things I normally wouldn't. I may not be as talkative as when buzzed, but when I have something to say it is heard (I tend to be quiet when sober). I have mixed feelings about this stage- :|
when wasted- I'm even more quiet than usual, just totally withdrawn into my own mind. I feel stupid, and a lot of the time I think about my SA and feel very disconnected from other people, like I spend most of my time on a different wavelength and there is something wrong with my brain. It's almost impossible to have a conversation at this stage. This stage is just a steaming, hot fudge depression with paranoid self-doubt sprinkles on top :sus
What have your experiences been?
when buzzed- I usually feel happy and am much more sociable than normal. I can even take the lead in big group conversations! At this stage,
when drunk-I get more assertive, even aggressive, than I normally am (I am normally very conciliatory). I'll do risky things I normally wouldn't. I may not be as talkative as when buzzed, but when I have something to say it is heard (I tend to be quiet when sober). I have mixed feelings about this stage- :|
when wasted- I'm even more quiet than usual, just totally withdrawn into my own mind. I feel stupid, and a lot of the time I think about my SA and feel very disconnected from other people, like I spend most of my time on a different wavelength and there is something wrong with my brain. It's almost impossible to have a conversation at this stage. This stage is just a steaming, hot fudge depression with paranoid self-doubt sprinkles on top :sus
What have your experiences been?