There are certain stresses that come with owning animals, of course, but I don't have any anxieties with animals apart from cats and the tinier rodents...
I was attacked by a cat when I was 3, and it's my earliest memory of being around any animal so it's still vivid in my mind today. Even though it was my fault for invading the cat's space, I distrust cats quite a bit because of it, unfortunately; I find it very difficult to read them, despite growing up around friend's, family's and neighbour's cats, and also learning through research and documentaries.
Then there's tiny hamsters, mice and gerbils I'm nervy of because holding them is a delicate matter; a, I don't want to accidentally drop them, and 2, I don't want to be bitten if my hands smell of something they're keen on trying or they're uncomfortable with me holding them. My old hammies were lovely, and for some reason I took on the smallest known breed, the Roborovski... don't ask. But they were sweet and I only got bitten a couple of times over the 4 years I had them. Then I had a Russian, but she was much more grumpy and didn't like handling all that much, in-fact the day I got her I was told she was friendly and never bit... then I got bitten! But I was a stranger to her, and a couple of weeks later I discovered she was hiding cancer, with tumours popping up all over her body, so she was likely in pain whenever I handled her.
Other animals are no problem. I've kept guinea-pigs since '97, rabbits since '98, I kept rats for about 10 years along with the hamsters (unfortunately I'm allergic to rats now), we had a family dog for 11 years, and I've kept goldfish on and off and hundreds of stick insects since '94, so I've never not had a 'pet' since I was 6.
I get so much pleasure from having animals in my life, but unfortunately in 2012 I was having difficulties coping with a break-up, I'd sunk into depression, and my dad was constantly bullying me about my guinea-pigs being in the house, so I had all but one of them re-homed to stop hearing my dad's words and making me feel like I shouldn't have animals. He made me begin to hate them and hate having them. I'd snap at them when they'd whistle too much because I knew my dad would get annoyed at the noise, so I was reacting before he could react and upset me. I was also beginning to neglect them and becoming less and less interested in spending time with them, which wasn't like me. I felt like a failure enough in my life (that hasn't changed), but with animals I knew I wasn't, so being bullied and made to hate the only thing I truly loved in this world, the only thing I had left in this world I could depend on that wasn't going to hurt me, it was too much to handle. The day the rescue guy came to collect them, and I had to sign them over, I felt physically sick. I felt I'd failed and my dad had won. I had to go for a long cycle ride out into the middle of nowhere to let the pain out.
Sadly I'm feeling that again from my dad, the bullying; the comments are coming back, the questions and little mumbles under his breath. I'm sick of being made to feel I shouldn't have my animals. I've suffered enough in this past year, nothing has gone my way, I've been stressed out of my mind, and I've been neglected, ignored, abused and attacked all round. So I can imagine in the next few months I'm going to be broken down again to the point of re-homing the animals I have now, because it's leading that way and I've already thought about it for months, but putting it off because I know my dad's a wanker and I shouldn't listen to him.
Where people have hurt me this past year especially, but all my life, too, animals have not. I have scars on my body from scratches and bites, but that's nothing. Animals can only ever truly hurt you once in their lives, and that's when they die.
Give me a whole room full of dogs or ferrets and I'd be happy as anything, playing with them with no fear at all. A room full of people, even if I didn't have SA, no thank you. To be perfectly honest I find humans incredibly boring overall, and would much rather play with an animal for the day than spend even 5 minutes with the majority of our species.
That dragged on longer than I'd planned.