Hello everyone I'm 15 and I would just like to clarify if this is in fact social anxiety.
First of all in social situations I feel like I can talk to people only I like which is quite a lot , I find I am extremely anxious. this is not the case however that bugs me, it's the fact that when in school I constantly feel as though teachers are always judging me for whatever reason, I have the constant feeling of teachers always talking behind my back and staring at me from a far distance. When I'm in lesson they always tend to stare at me and when I stare back they look away in a fast motion which leads to me believing that there's something wrong with me. When I am talking to a teacher i find it very awkward and tend to avoid eye contact. I always have an impression that many people don't like me at all and for all the times that they do I feel really down and depressed asking myself what's wrong with me?
There are some situations in which I feel are really awkward for example when my friend is talking with a girl in a hall waiting for a teacher I find it rather awkward and my other friends are staring at me laughing because they know what situation I'm in, don't get me wrong we all laugh about it as they have the same problems too however, it seems as teachers know what is happening for me and they start to stare at me too. I always think it's about me, oh it forgot- the girl's friends know what is happening too which doesn't help either. In despair, I always think of these social situations for quite a while thinking of how much of an idiot I am and feeling exactly what I felt that day thinking about it. I have exams soon and I don't feel like seeing people I think hate me, I don't want to go in lessons because I think teachers hate me which could affect my grades I know. I just feel like I'm a freak. help. Is this social anxiety? Is it all in my head?
First of all in social situations I feel like I can talk to people only I like which is quite a lot , I find I am extremely anxious. this is not the case however that bugs me, it's the fact that when in school I constantly feel as though teachers are always judging me for whatever reason, I have the constant feeling of teachers always talking behind my back and staring at me from a far distance. When I'm in lesson they always tend to stare at me and when I stare back they look away in a fast motion which leads to me believing that there's something wrong with me. When I am talking to a teacher i find it very awkward and tend to avoid eye contact. I always have an impression that many people don't like me at all and for all the times that they do I feel really down and depressed asking myself what's wrong with me?
There are some situations in which I feel are really awkward for example when my friend is talking with a girl in a hall waiting for a teacher I find it rather awkward and my other friends are staring at me laughing because they know what situation I'm in, don't get me wrong we all laugh about it as they have the same problems too however, it seems as teachers know what is happening for me and they start to stare at me too. I always think it's about me, oh it forgot- the girl's friends know what is happening too which doesn't help either. In despair, I always think of these social situations for quite a while thinking of how much of an idiot I am and feeling exactly what I felt that day thinking about it. I have exams soon and I don't feel like seeing people I think hate me, I don't want to go in lessons because I think teachers hate me which could affect my grades I know. I just feel like I'm a freak. help. Is this social anxiety? Is it all in my head?
