I get that way too. When someone doesn't respond or just never responds I'm getting the sign they don't care for me so it's like leave me alone type of vibe. And like you said it can be the smallest things and I will get upset. And friendship never lasts for me...could be my fault or sometimes I have no idea what the hell happened. I have no advice since sometimes I get those thoughts that everyone hates me.

 

Anxiety can act as a people repellent.

 

Don't take personal that your proffesor doesn't respond your email. He must be busy with something else or he read but he forgot to answer. It has happened to me a lot of times. I send the same email but saying 'Sorry, I sent you an email and not sure if you received it...'. And they always respond after that.

I've felt the same way many times. It's complicated because anxiety seems to ruin our relationship with people, especially if you're avoidant like me. Then we try to fit in and they respond coldly, and that reinforces our fears. I try to think that I haven't done anything bad to those people and they don't know me at all, so there's no real reason to dislike me. Anyway not everyone is going to treat you that way.

 

I assume that they hate me or dislike me.

This reminds me of how I used to feel when I thought my SA was because something was wrong with ME. Turns out I was awesome when I learned to love myself.

It like a line from the Jay-Z song "No Church in the Wild":

"Socrates asked: Who's bias do y'all seek?"

What he means is where do you look for approval and acceptance? Do you seek these from other people's biased opinions (all opinions and judgements are biased) or do you seek them from yourself?

I realized all my problems were because I was looking for MY identity in other peoples eyes. I still have SA to a degree but I beat myself up over things like unreturned phone calls less.

 

Me too!!! Especially if someone seems interested in being your friend or significant other, you would think they would want to talk with you as much as possible. I know I respond often to people I like.

 

I think you might give off an impression of being too 'soft' and others think they can walk over you or not treat you as well as other people because they think you won't make a big deal about it. At least, that's how I think and I feel ignored a lot of the times as well...tho with the professor thing, you really shouldn't worry. They get tons of emails from students and it's nothing personal.