Hello, this is my first post in here 
I really need advice from people that knows what it's like to have SAD.
I'm a 22 year old girl, i got a job at McDonalds 2 months ago to be able to pay for college, it's my first real job. And so far, it's mentally exhausting me, i'm working in the kitchen, so, there's usually lots of screaming and doing and lots of people in a small kitchen, i got used to sceaming myself in there, but, i feel like i can't do anything ok, i feel so below avarage, i think my co-workers hate me because i suck at the job, and it makes me feel worse because it's not really that hard, and i just feel i can't do it ok.
I've been going to a psychologist for 2 years i think, and i've improved so much! SO much!! I've never had a panick attack in my life, but sometimes when the situations get too stressful (aka saturday night with the place full and lots of food coming out), i get so anxious, and when the situations is too much for me i go into, what i call, a "semi-panick attack", i just have to get out of there, fast!! So i start crying and i just run away, and i feel like i can't breath, i feel like i'm such a failure. I had this happened to me twice in my workplace, so i ended up telling my managers that i had SAD, they're all very understanding, and even told me that when i felt everything was too much for me i should tell them and then take a break to calm down.
But, if i do anything, anything at all wrong, i get VERY anxious, and some of my co-workers treat me like i'm stupid (they don't know i have SAD), or just yell at me, or they get angry, and i get depressed. And my managers treat me with kid gloves sometimes, which doesn't really bother me, but sometimes i wish it wasn't that way, i want to be like anybody else!!
I guess the problems is that i feel like my co-workers hate me, or get upset when they know i have to work the same day they do. I get moved from places a lot (first in the chicken area, then the burger area, then another place and so on), annd maybe it's me, but i can't stop thinking, they move me because noone wants me around.
I'm sorry i wrote so much!!! But what do you think?? What should i do??
I really need advice from people that knows what it's like to have SAD. I'm a 22 year old girl, i got a job at McDonalds 2 months ago to be able to pay for college, it's my first real job. And so far, it's mentally exhausting me, i'm working in the kitchen, so, there's usually lots of screaming and doing and lots of people in a small kitchen, i got used to sceaming myself in there, but, i feel like i can't do anything ok, i feel so below avarage, i think my co-workers hate me because i suck at the job, and it makes me feel worse because it's not really that hard, and i just feel i can't do it ok.
I've been going to a psychologist for 2 years i think, and i've improved so much! SO much!! I've never had a panick attack in my life, but sometimes when the situations get too stressful (aka saturday night with the place full and lots of food coming out), i get so anxious, and when the situations is too much for me i go into, what i call, a "semi-panick attack", i just have to get out of there, fast!! So i start crying and i just run away, and i feel like i can't breath, i feel like i'm such a failure. I had this happened to me twice in my workplace, so i ended up telling my managers that i had SAD, they're all very understanding, and even told me that when i felt everything was too much for me i should tell them and then take a break to calm down.
But, if i do anything, anything at all wrong, i get VERY anxious, and some of my co-workers treat me like i'm stupid (they don't know i have SAD), or just yell at me, or they get angry, and i get depressed. And my managers treat me with kid gloves sometimes, which doesn't really bother me, but sometimes i wish it wasn't that way, i want to be like anybody else!!
I guess the problems is that i feel like my co-workers hate me, or get upset when they know i have to work the same day they do. I get moved from places a lot (first in the chicken area, then the burger area, then another place and so on), annd maybe it's me, but i can't stop thinking, they move me because noone wants me around.
I'm sorry i wrote so much!!! But what do you think?? What should i do??
