Hi. Life isn't going so well for me right now.
I'm so tired of being lonely. I'm sure there are many out there who feel the same way at some point of time in their life. It sucks. Of course.
As much as I keep telling myself that it's OKAY not to have a close friend and I should just carry on with my life as a loner as usual, I still hope that one day I'll have a true friend. A friend that I can talk to about anything and most importantly, a friend that let me be myself.
To be honest, I don't really like myself much but I do not want to change and pretend to be someone I'm not just to be with someone. Everyone is different. I let people be who they want to be. (Not everyone will think the same way as I do which is fine) I always ask myself why would anyone be friends with someone like me? I think I have some good qualities but does it matter? I don't know.
I'm not working/studying at the moment. When I tell people this, they will say that they're so jealous of me. Yeah, it's awesome to have the luxury of time to do whatever you want.
I've been spending the past 5 months at home.
On top of that, I barely have anyone to talk to apart from my family. I know that you can't expect people to magically appear in your life and expect them to stay by your side. Friendship takes time. I'm willing to invest my time in it but I let fear get in the way. I'm too ashamed to even leave my house now.
I've had some internet friends but eventually they'll stop writing back to me
I got to know a few people who live in my area. I met up with them although I thought of backing out so many times. It was very awkward for me to be there. The other girls 'clicked' with each other and I felt like my presence didn't matter. Well you can guess how it turned out. I don't talk to them ever since.
It's so easy to complain but it's the opposite when it comes to fixing the problem. So here I am ranting on this forum because I have nothing much to do. Too much free time is actually a bad thing! What should I do? :bash
I'm so tired of being lonely. I'm sure there are many out there who feel the same way at some point of time in their life. It sucks. Of course.
As much as I keep telling myself that it's OKAY not to have a close friend and I should just carry on with my life as a loner as usual, I still hope that one day I'll have a true friend. A friend that I can talk to about anything and most importantly, a friend that let me be myself.
To be honest, I don't really like myself much but I do not want to change and pretend to be someone I'm not just to be with someone. Everyone is different. I let people be who they want to be. (Not everyone will think the same way as I do which is fine) I always ask myself why would anyone be friends with someone like me? I think I have some good qualities but does it matter? I don't know.
I'm not working/studying at the moment. When I tell people this, they will say that they're so jealous of me. Yeah, it's awesome to have the luxury of time to do whatever you want.
I've been spending the past 5 months at home.
On top of that, I barely have anyone to talk to apart from my family. I know that you can't expect people to magically appear in your life and expect them to stay by your side. Friendship takes time. I'm willing to invest my time in it but I let fear get in the way. I'm too ashamed to even leave my house now.
I've had some internet friends but eventually they'll stop writing back to me
It's so easy to complain but it's the opposite when it comes to fixing the problem. So here I am ranting on this forum because I have nothing much to do. Too much free time is actually a bad thing! What should I do? :bash