I've had this retail job for about 4 years. At first it was really difficult for me, but I started getting used to it all. I've built a tolerance to bad customers to where it didn't really affect me at all. I felt pretty confident and good about my job and my work performance.
Til about 6 months ago that is.
Recently, there has been this one woman that comes in occasionally that is the female version of satan. Trust me, that is an understatement. First time I met her I had a run in with her over something very childish, and now she comes in just to target me and give me a hard time. Now she comes in the store to do just that, she doesn't even want to buy anything. As soon as I see her I start having a panic attack. Its very obvious that I'm panicking, I'm sweating, getting red, and shaking pretty bad. She feeds off this apparently, she likes to watch me squirm. She finds me and comes right up to me and starts giving me hell. She'll purposely humiliate me in front of other people and my coworkers. I start to shake a little bit and she asks why am I shaking and laughs at me. Why is your face red? She makes fun of me for having a minimum wage job. She does everything she can to ruin my day.
The funny thing is, I have always been friendly and more than polite with her. She just has something against me. I don't even know her name, and she treats me like she hates me. I even asked her one time what she has against me. It took a lot of courage for me to actually go and ask that, and she told me to mind my own business. I called in sick today just because I was so scared of seeing her again. I don't know if I can handle my job anymore. I'm even scared to go out in public now in fear of seeing her somewhere and her confronting me about nothing just to watch me squirm.
Why do people have to be like this? She doesn't realize she's having a huge negative impact on my life right now. After years of getting better, I find myself back to square one again. In the last few weeks I've fallen into a deep state of depression over this. I don't know if that might seem kind of stupid to any of you, but just knowing that a total stranger can hate me for no reason whatsoever really makes me want to just stop living.
Most people would just say 'screw her' and move on with their life. I can't for some reason. This is a huge problem for me. I have no one to talk to about my anxiety, so that's why I'm asking you guys. Why can't I overcome this?
Til about 6 months ago that is.
Recently, there has been this one woman that comes in occasionally that is the female version of satan. Trust me, that is an understatement. First time I met her I had a run in with her over something very childish, and now she comes in just to target me and give me a hard time. Now she comes in the store to do just that, she doesn't even want to buy anything. As soon as I see her I start having a panic attack. Its very obvious that I'm panicking, I'm sweating, getting red, and shaking pretty bad. She feeds off this apparently, she likes to watch me squirm. She finds me and comes right up to me and starts giving me hell. She'll purposely humiliate me in front of other people and my coworkers. I start to shake a little bit and she asks why am I shaking and laughs at me. Why is your face red? She makes fun of me for having a minimum wage job. She does everything she can to ruin my day.
The funny thing is, I have always been friendly and more than polite with her. She just has something against me. I don't even know her name, and she treats me like she hates me. I even asked her one time what she has against me. It took a lot of courage for me to actually go and ask that, and she told me to mind my own business. I called in sick today just because I was so scared of seeing her again. I don't know if I can handle my job anymore. I'm even scared to go out in public now in fear of seeing her somewhere and her confronting me about nothing just to watch me squirm.
Why do people have to be like this? She doesn't realize she's having a huge negative impact on my life right now. After years of getting better, I find myself back to square one again. In the last few weeks I've fallen into a deep state of depression over this. I don't know if that might seem kind of stupid to any of you, but just knowing that a total stranger can hate me for no reason whatsoever really makes me want to just stop living.
Most people would just say 'screw her' and move on with their life. I can't for some reason. This is a huge problem for me. I have no one to talk to about my anxiety, so that's why I'm asking you guys. Why can't I overcome this?