[Willow Maid]

Today I mess up real bad at work, and got sent home early for the first time because of it. The whole thing was horrific for me seeing my boss upset at me and my coworkers were in the room witnessing it. If they didn't think I was incompetent before I'm sure they do now. He should have fired me right away because I don't know how I could go back there and face them after that. Compared to my coworkers I'm the weak link and a liability. There's no way this will be forgotten.

 

[Jenna]

What happened?

Everyone makes mistakes, even big ones. Just try to learn from it and move on.

 

[alwaystooquiet]

I can imagine how you feel, and I hope you won't be too hard on yourself. Mistakes happen, and it doesn't mean that you're incompetent. I think the fact that you care about how you perform makes you a good employee. If you want, you can see this as an opportunity to grow and do better next time.

 

[Willow Maid]

Well, I have an update on this. I was deciding on quitting if he wasn't going to fire me 'cause I'm just afraid now of doing or deciding anything and have it blow up in my face again. But the next day he did fire me. I liked the job really, but I felt like I wasn't reaching the expectations enough, which lowered my self esteem and was really triggering my SA. I tried to control my SA and communicate to the best of my abilities if I had any doubts like I was told, but that was basically all the time and I didn't want to be annoying about it or didn't want to look like I didn't know what I was doing especially when I worked there for months now. I can still remember the times when I asked something to my boss or one of my coworkers and I either get a look or a response like I should know. I guess small moments like those and the mistakes I've been making just build up and my SA started overwhelming me on occasion that I couldn't think, focus, or remember.

To give insight on my now ex-job, I was an assistant to a man that custom painted shoes and on occasion other stuff, too. It was my job mostly to prep shoes before getting painted and do paint touch-ups. And the thing that got me fired was incorrectly prepping a mini fridge (basically melting the plastic door frame with acetone) to be custom painted. We've done this once before so I was certain of doing the task. Apparently, I wasn't. As I mentioned above, that week my SA was getting to me that my mind was out of it and thought that the door of the fridge was to also be worked on like last time. Except there was no last time cause the door was never worked on like I thought. And that's that.

 

[WillYouStopDave]

To give insight on my now ex-job, I was an assistant to a man that custom painted shoes and on occasion other stuff, too. It was my job mostly to prep shoes before getting painted and do paint touch-ups. And the thing that got me fired was incorrectly prepping a mini fridge (basically melting the plastic door frame with acetone) to be custom painted. We've done this once before so I was certain of doing the task. Apparently, I wasn't. As I mentioned above, that week my SA was getting to me that my mind was out of it and thought that the door of the fridge was to also be worked on like last time. Except there was no last time cause the door was never worked on like I thought. And that's that.

Wow. That's what he fired you for? That's pretty messed up. Would he have changed his mind if you offered to pay for the fridge?

 

[Willow Maid]

Wow. That's what he fired you for? That's pretty messed up. Would he have changed his mind if you offered to pay for the fridge?

I doubt it, by that point I'm sure I was painting myself as unreliable 'cause I've made mistakes like this before and didn't let him know right away (I basically needed time how to word out the problem) and sometimes I didn't tell him because I didn't think I had to, I thought I was doing what I was supposed to be doing like that fridge. Though I was upset a bit how he made it sound like we worked on fridges a hundred times before when it was only once and was certain at the time we worked on the door. But I guess I'd be the one to make that mistake and the others would've easily remembered that.

 

[Blue Dino]

That's rough. Hope you won't let that discourage you moving forward. Mess ups happen commonly with most people in work life. I can relate to the scenario of having coworkers all noticing my incompetence at my position and ganging up on me about it with constant sly remarks, inside jokes and hints. It's been happening more and more for the past year. Often it linger on the back of my mind.

 

[asian dramas]

Surprised you got fired. I made a huge mistake where we accidentally paid a client an extra $200,000. I did not get fired. I was even left to keep checking that the clients paid it back as my boss had to leave for an appointment. This was a crazy mistake. I had made little mistakes before. This was back in 2021.

It did knock my confidence but I gave myself a few days to wallow and then got myself together and started job searching. Some jobs are just not right for us even if we like it. You'll find a job you like. Just don't let this push you back etc.

You've got this

 

[Willow Maid]

Yeah I did like it, though it often felt like I was slowly getting alienated by my boss (on the grounds on giving the others more stuff to do than me most of the time unless there's a lot to do) and kept on feeling like a newbie with how I worked since I sometimes asked or think of what I should take care of next when everyone else seems to know (and we pretty much got hired around the same time). Guess the problem was that if I make a decision or take initiative on something its usually the wrong one like I get "You didn't need to that" "I already took care of it" or "That's not important to do now", but when they do it it's fine. It's possible everyone thought that I didn't know what I was doing anymore and figured that they need to "hold my hand" and one already pointed out early on that they aren't my "babysitters". I know they're all good people, they just don't know exactly what's wrong with me and how all of that affects me. I'm just a normal timid girl to them.

I guess it's for the best that I'm not working there anymore, I was starting to get scared of coming in everyday, counting the hours of when I'd go back again and pray the day would be smooth sailing with me not messing something up with what I say or do.