Hi folks - can't say I post here often... I will immediately update my profile after this post so I don't have to bore others or repeat things when I do come here. I do read from time to time, when things get worse than my brain would like.
Here's my dilemma. Seems that our dept. here at work is very childish, and very unprofessional. People don't tell the whole truth in order to protect their standing, people will knee-jerk blame things on others before accepting blame, people will speak ill of others when their not around - both about work related issues and not - and I essentially have been trying to get away from this type of behavior. Our manager is one of these people as well, and I wouldn't feel comfortable bringing this to his attention at all.
I do suffer from several aspects of SAD, and I find that when trying to be more ethical myself (a personal choice; I found I was acting much like these people) people tend to think I'm a wuss, and use that as free reign to behave worse towards me.
So here's my question: Should I continue to /try/ to be ethical in all senses, and try to ignore the majority of crap that people tend to throw my way, undermining my position, making me feel inferior, and not even trying to offer a level of respect? Or should I play the game, which isn't how I really want to act, but tends to even the playing field?
I've been told I'm a being of extremes, so to speak. Either I go too far one way, and let people walk over me (mor eoften than not), or I come off too strong, and seem evil-angry. I've also been told that I'm not the type of person people screw around with, but they can't see my thoughts, and I always feel the opposite of that. It's really anxiety talking, cause I just don't know how to react to these situations anymore, and makes me feel like less than I am every time something like this happens. Maybe I'm putting too much thought and caring into it...
Here's my dilemma. Seems that our dept. here at work is very childish, and very unprofessional. People don't tell the whole truth in order to protect their standing, people will knee-jerk blame things on others before accepting blame, people will speak ill of others when their not around - both about work related issues and not - and I essentially have been trying to get away from this type of behavior. Our manager is one of these people as well, and I wouldn't feel comfortable bringing this to his attention at all.
I do suffer from several aspects of SAD, and I find that when trying to be more ethical myself (a personal choice; I found I was acting much like these people) people tend to think I'm a wuss, and use that as free reign to behave worse towards me.
So here's my question: Should I continue to /try/ to be ethical in all senses, and try to ignore the majority of crap that people tend to throw my way, undermining my position, making me feel inferior, and not even trying to offer a level of respect? Or should I play the game, which isn't how I really want to act, but tends to even the playing field?
I've been told I'm a being of extremes, so to speak. Either I go too far one way, and let people walk over me (mor eoften than not), or I come off too strong, and seem evil-angry. I've also been told that I'm not the type of person people screw around with, but they can't see my thoughts, and I always feel the opposite of that. It's really anxiety talking, cause I just don't know how to react to these situations anymore, and makes me feel like less than I am every time something like this happens. Maybe I'm putting too much thought and caring into it...