I've never had a proper friend. I've always craved a friend. Someone who knows me well and likes me. Having someone to spend time with. I just need that. But I never let myself get close to anyone or open up enough for them to get to know me. It really bothered me. In a way I've kind of just accepted that I'll never have a friend but I don't know if I can deal with that. Its a need, not a want.