First off I have social phobia, of course , and i'm not keen on substance abuse. The main problem that I can see here is that I don't seem to be on the same frequency as everyone else. There's honestly nothing wrong with me. I just don't feel tuned in, I feel seperate, I feel severed from the connection to other people, even when it seems that i'm making good conversation. It doesn't feel natural, and i'm guessing this is where it starts to build from. I just noticed that either when i'm hyped up on caffeine or buzzed just a little, I feel like i'm more confident or I feel like i'm in that natural groove or frequency, like just where I should be. otherwise I feel that my wheel is a little askew and it's not getting the traction it needs to be on the track like everyon else. Why is this? Maybe some information about the neurobiology of the brain and how alc. or caff. affects it. I'm not sure. Thought I might ask you guys.