"Everyone Hates Me." That is the most ridiculous statement i have ever seen. The only way I could believe this is if you asked everyone you knew straight to their face if they hate you. If they all said yes, I would question whether you were being extremely rude, offensive, or mean to them. People just don't hate other people for no reason. Let me ask you something. Out of all the people you hate, is there a reason why you don't like them? Of course there is. Have you ever, at any time during your life, looked at a person from a distance and decided that you hated them without even knowing anything about them? I know I haven't. And I have a reason for every person I don't like. Now unless you walk around in a neo nazi outfit or dress like the taliban and hold a RPG over your head, there is no reason why everyone you knw hates you. Which leaves only one conclusion. Your self talk, which is naturally not accurate, has become so implanted into your subconscious thought, that even when presented the opportunity to reject these false thoughts with reason, you still hang on to them. You my friend, have a lot to think about.
Me on the other hand, I really don't notice my self talk. It must really be built in there. I don't really know what im thinking when i get nervous. I just get nervous around people. Ill find the thoughts once i start therapy. The only thing i know about my anxiety is that people notice, and act differently towards me than people who I am comfortable around. Which basically means my SA is having a negative impact on my appeal. Wait. Shouldnt i be associating SA with looking bad in public? Shouldnt my negative thoughts be automatically thinking "why are you so nervous?" "looking nervous only makes you look stupider." Therefore, shouldnt my subconscious thought prevent me from feeling nervous? If only