Hi, my name's Ray and I'm new to these forums.
For a long time now, longer than I can remember, I have been anxious and scared at the thought of girls being around me, I have been overwhelmed with the thought *GET OUT OF HERE NOW!!!!!* when I am in a room with a bunch of people that I don't know, and am all round an unhappy individual, as everything I used to love doing now seems pointless and boring.
That is the most minimal explanation of me, but for now it's what I can recall.
Today I feel like I have taken a step in a direction, by acknowledging that there is something wrong with me, something that self contemplation, in this case, will make things worse.
I look forward to getting to know you all, I also believe I am quite interesting when you get to know me, but that's the hard part!
I live in New Zealand, in a Windy city called Wellington, I live in a house with 3 friends (2 of them are my best friends, ones I can always count on), I work in IT at a national council, and I play electric guitar.
There is a quote that has been stuck in my mind, and I've thought a lot about it and it has come down to, it's not as easy as that.... "To get something you've never had, you need to do something you've never done."
I can see the message behind this, but it doesn't seem to help the part of actually doing the thing you've never done.
Anyway, it's good to finally feel as though I am not the only person who is this messed up, have a good day people =]
For a long time now, longer than I can remember, I have been anxious and scared at the thought of girls being around me, I have been overwhelmed with the thought *GET OUT OF HERE NOW!!!!!* when I am in a room with a bunch of people that I don't know, and am all round an unhappy individual, as everything I used to love doing now seems pointless and boring.
That is the most minimal explanation of me, but for now it's what I can recall.
Today I feel like I have taken a step in a direction, by acknowledging that there is something wrong with me, something that self contemplation, in this case, will make things worse.
I look forward to getting to know you all, I also believe I am quite interesting when you get to know me, but that's the hard part!
I live in New Zealand, in a Windy city called Wellington, I live in a house with 3 friends (2 of them are my best friends, ones I can always count on), I work in IT at a national council, and I play electric guitar.
There is a quote that has been stuck in my mind, and I've thought a lot about it and it has come down to, it's not as easy as that.... "To get something you've never had, you need to do something you've never done."
I can see the message behind this, but it doesn't seem to help the part of actually doing the thing you've never done.
Anyway, it's good to finally feel as though I am not the only person who is this messed up, have a good day people =]
