I understand how you feel. For a large portion of my life, I've felt hideous. And a lot of that had to do with racial insecurity. It took me a while (22 years to be exact) to begin to love my brown skin, curly hair and plump lips. It's a journey and it's ****ed up that we're made to be insecure about being non-white. But the journey is beautiful - to wake up one day and be content with what you see in the mirror.