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Born Of Blotmonað
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Finally! I found out what was clipping in the mix. I tried & looked for every thing I could think of under the sun, the drivers, individual programs, USB ports, various old forum threads that mentioned similar but different issues…& of course it was a much simpler problem with a simple solution…I didn’t see the tree in front of me because I thought what I was looking for was at the edge of the forest so that’s the direction my gaze became obsessed with
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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My escape used to be my spirituality
Out of body, never grounding me
To escape reality
But I've found a place I like to be
With faces I'm happy to see
Spent so long feeling locked up inside
Still learning how to open up
to a world I tried to hide from for so long
Singing a sad and lonely song
But those days now feel long gone
I've grown strong and moved on
Changed my view on life's meaning
Sent my biggest demon screaming
Changing the dream I'm dreaming
Giving reason to this breathing
Still healing this beating in my chest
Where all the pain has laid to rest
Where so much has remained unexpressed
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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Today the loneliness is creeping back in
I'd been wonderin' where it's been
Good things on the horizon
But I still feel like I'm stranded on an island
In the lonesome silence, I'm crying
As I feel the sorrow rising
My throat begins to tighten
Tears I'm wiping from my eyes
But from my past, I've grown wise
Don't listen to the lies my mind tries to devise
Let the thoughts come and go as they arise
Till I realize this is temporary
And all my fears of the future in the present are only imaginary
Rarely does worry come true
Changing my point of view
I can see through the blue mood
Leaving me feeling renewed
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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Revised the above...


Today the loneliness is creeping its way back in
I'd been wonderin' where it had been
Good things are coming on the horizon
But still, I feel like I'm stranded on an island
Inside in the silence, I'm crying
As I feel the sorrow rising
Wisened, I turn my eyes in
I pay no mind to the lies my mind tries to devise
Let the thoughts come and go as they arise
I've realized it's all temporary
My future worries in the present are only imaginary
Rarely do they come true
And never like they do in my mind's view
Now I can see through my blue mood
My view is no longer skewed
Feeling renewed
With a new attitude
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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I saw you smile as the wind blew through your hair
A moment frozen in time where I felt like I was floating in the air
I could see the reflection of the skies and the glare of the sun flickering in your eyes
I love the highs every time we say hi, I even love our goodbyes with your smile like a sunrise
I'll never tell you any lies, I want let you know what's on my mind...and it's you every time
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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My past is coming up and it's struck me like thunder
No wonder I'm balling while tears are falling
In my mind a younger self calling from a time not too far behind me
In my writing I find me as it reminds me to be present
A place of peace, calm and contentment
Looking back I see this moment has always been my reality
Now, I'm back to living in 3d
Believe me, I spent years living in my head
So worried about every word I said
Constantly trying to predict what might be ahead
Only brief moments of relief from the dread
The weight on my shoulder
Making me feel mentally and physically older
The pain in my chest
That still hasn't been put to rest
But I'm glad life has put me to the test
Looking back I can see I was always doing my best with what I knew
And because of all the pain I grew
When the rain seeps through the soil and the flowers begin to bloom
Opening under the sun and closing under the moon
As the breeze through the leaves sings a soft tune
What we struggle with now can sometimes be a future boon
 

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Permanently An Idiot
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I've been working on an art piece this week. Not my usual stuff and it's just decoration for my room when I finally move out. I was gonna put it up on DeviantArt when I finished, which should be tomorrow or Tuesday. Today I read my horoscope which told me to accept a job offer I get this week, that I wouldn't have been picked if I wasn't worth it and that I'm more talented than I think. I don't pay attention to horoscopes really but this has actually given me anxiety, to the point that I might wait a week before posting on DA. That can't be a normal reaction...
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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Thinking back to a time when I felt dated
When I used to wonder why I was created
Now the past feels like it's faded
I've waited for this moment when my life now feels like it's been elevated
Simple yet complicated
Not sure these feelings can be translated into words
As I move towards a future of possibility
It's thrilling me as I try to maintain my humility
Thinking how we never know when the end could be
As I feel the life force course through my body
Reminding me how, in this very moment, I'm alive right now
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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Your eyes, my butterflies
Dancing around one another clockwise
For you I compromise
Like heat waves under blue skies
Our love's on the rise
When the world around us dries up
We'll nourish it from our overflowing cups
You opened the door
I knew you were the one I've been looking for
You make my mind and heart soar
I feel like a child on his birthday
A world of grey now full of colors
I see only you, no others
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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Well you opened up the door
I swear I haven't felt this way before
And I can't just let this be, my heart has room for two
One half was made for me and the other half I wanna give to you
I promise you I'll stay, I'll never walk away
You make me feel this way
You are worth the wait, just one more day...
And there's just one word I want to hear you say...
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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Love and war
You've got me feeling raw
I'm in my feels, this is for real
It's like that, you got me coming right back
Before I die, I wanna give you a try
You and I are the perfect recipe
I wanna give you the best of me
I don't wanna go back home
I won't ever leave you on your own
 

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For years I kept wanting to resume my world building project I started in my teens. I use to draft, write and drew everything ideas and all on a few notebooks. I manage to stumble across them again many years ago when I was digging through old boxes. It brought me back so much nostalgia. Most of the ideas were pretty stupid, but the overall of it was pretty cool. I was still baffled how much imagination I had even at that age. I think I stopped around the middle of high school when my social life finally took off. I had friends and relationships. I didn't even care about the project or thought about it again. A few times I was really close to just trashing the notebook feeling embarrassed by it.

Stumbling across it as an adult, it inspired me to want to get back to it, but now with a much more mature and educated spin. Having more experience and knowledge of the world now. Knowing I could incorporate much better themes to it this way.

For a few months around the summer of 2013, I did started on resuming it. I was quite depressed at that time and I used it to kind of cope. I managed to put a lot of the ideas together digitally so I could work on changing them and playing with them easier. But then I stopped again after awhile when more life stuff ruined my mood yet again. Past years I keep trying to resume again on/off to no avail. I keep procrastinating. Usually by the part of the day where I have time to do so, I am just too mentally tired. And I just want to relax with my brain turned off.

In all now, it's still kind of sad at my age now where I now back to doing something so juvenile I guess. When I should be focused on more important things. I never thought I will be back to thinking about this now. 😅 But the creativity and imagination always seem to provide me a good escapism for my mental health.
 
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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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My insecurities are obscuring me from my ability to see clearly
Am I giving up prematurely?
Did I ever stand a chance in this dance of possible romance?
My thoughts are telling me I'm a fool
Now I just play it cool
I admit I am a bit of a flirt
And now that I feel something real
I'm afraid of getting hurt
The seat of the soul
Heart like a burnt out piece of coal
I know my worth, I thought I was ready
But the weight of my insecurities is just too heavy
As the past creeps up from where it last left me
So here I stand, a man, giving up on love again before it even began
Shutting down his heart like it were a work of art
A masterpiece, rapidly restoring my sanity
No more anxiety when she's sitting beside me
By relieving the agony of a fantasy between her and me as a possibility in my mind
I'm no longer in a bind
I'm tired of feeling the pressure like I need to impress her
Making me feel like I'm in a compressor
These feelings have brought up the past to haunt me
And now as it taunts me I feel I may not be ready
Maybe I'm still on the mend and it would be better to just be her friend in the end
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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Yesterday I felt like a wreck
Today was a reality check
The past is like a speck in my rear view
I can see through the darkness
Far from heartless
She opened my heart
Now we go together like a work of art
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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She loves puzzles and has trouble falling asleep
I'll always be there to sweep her off of her feet
If she gives me her heart I'll take it
I promise I'll never break it
I know we can make it
My arms will be a place she feels safe in
Listen closely to every word she says
When she doesn't know how beautiful she is
I'll tell her over and over so she'll never forget
I'll give so much more than I get
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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When I'm with her I can feel my heart beat and my blood rush
And she's so cute when her face gets blushed
I know I make her nervous but that's okay cause she does the same to me
When I close my eyes at night she's the only one I see
The way she occasionally stares deeply deep in thought
Makes me wonder what's on her mind, I know she's on mine a lot
The way her eyes change colors in the light from green to brown
And her laughter is the most beautiful sound
Her loving nature makes me think heaven made her
And her smile's so beautiful I know the whole world would concur
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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I've got a hundred thoughts on my mind
And she's ninety nine
She shines so bright
She's my guiding light
Like a lantern in the dark
She's the spark that ignites my heart
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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I keep the thought of you in my mind
Cause' when it's dark you're a light that shines
I pay no mind to the signs I see
Trust in the reality that's right before me
When I'm with you my worries melt away
The way your body sways when you say hey
Takes my breath and in my chest there's a theft
You stole my heart, now please don't break it
You were the one to wake it up from it's slumber
It's a wonder how you make me feel 10x younger
 

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Karmically Cryptic
Wonder
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I'm getting close to you
I've got feelings I wanna show you
You're the best thing to happen to me
I wanna give you the best of me
You make my heart shine
You brighten my mind
It's been a long ride
Finally we collide
Most my thoughts you're occupyin'
And when I say I'm fallin' for you I ain't lyin'
 
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