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Karmically Cryptic
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Haha I'm taking this all too serious
Almost 3 am and I'm slightly delirious
It's all just an experience
I need to remember to enjoy myself
To put these feelings temporarily on the shelf
I have such a tendency to move mentally too fast
Always ending up with a crash
I've found balance in meditation
But you still break my concentration
 

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Karmically Cryptic
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My fear of rejection is hurting me more than its attempt at providing protection
Feel like I'm cut in half at the midsection
Pain spreadin' outward from my heart
I should have known better from the start
Why do I do this to myself? It's not the fault of anyone else
Confusion has made an intrusion, I can't come to any conclusions
I get my hopes up only to end up feeling cut by my own hand
I'm feeling cold like a snowman
As old feelings of loneliness are slowly trying to seep in from deep in
My fear of abandonment is creepin' in
As soon I get the feeling I'm always ready to leap in
What's wrong with me, sinking into the bottom of me
But I'd rather swim than sink
Just feel, don't think
Tears drop with every blink
It's like I'm living in the past in how I feel
This s*** is just too real
 

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Karmically Cryptic
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Staying afloat but I feel like I can barely speak what needs to be spoken
Floating in emotion without mental commotion
Feeling all that these feelings bring
Overflowing like a wellspring
It's hurting but my eyes I'm not averting
I could use some novocaine cause I can feel everything
I wish I could hug someone else other than myself
Take another quarter and throw it down the wishing well
I can feel the pain in every living cell
But I've got the skills to cope
So I'll just observe all of me like I'm looking at myself through a microscope
 

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Calm peace surrounds me
Inside my emotions rest soundly
Close my eyes and listen to the sound around me
I've learned to let it be and now I see
Had to stop resisting to set it free
 

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I've learned my heart is my biggest weakness
So I'll throw away the key to this
Don't need any more of this so I'll reign over it victorious
Unbarred but I'll remain on guard
Till it rests in the graveyard
Maybe one day someone will pick the lock
With a soft beautiful knock
 

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Karmically Cryptic
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Watching waiting while weaving wickedness
Darkness as thick as this has never before existed
Giftedly twisted its gaze can darken the brightest of day days
Its wicked ways can play tricks on the scripts in peoples minds
Dark times, darkness even spread to children's nursery rhymes
As warning signs for darkness so thick it'll leave you blind
Hope is the enemy, the light in the dark we only sometimes pretend to see
A spark in the dark to light a dim flame can reclaim what the darkness gained
Hope unchained, the darkness tamed the days become brighter again
 

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Karmically Cryptic
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"Please go and play." The voices say
Shut up and get out of my way
It's barely 5 AM and I've had enough of the day
I just wanna disappear, evaporate from the atmosphere
To be clear, I want out of this stratosphere
Feeling disembodied I want out of this physical body
Detached from the impact of heavy news
Bringing up the past, giving me the heavy blues
Heavenless, right now I don't want to exist
Feel like I've fallen into a pit that's bottomless
But I'm only human, don't know what the **** I'm doin'
I've yet to find a way out of this
 

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Feelin' a little high
The blues have lifted into a blue sky
No longer feel so heavy
My mind was in a crisis
Things were getting sketchy
No longer feeling lifeless
Feelin' revived, Feelin' alive
I knew I would survive
Now it's time to put the gear back in drive
 

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When I look into your eyes I feel like I'm under hypnosis
I know you notice when you're in the room you're my main focus
I don't know what to call this, all this rawness
I've had so many losses in love, never felt enough
Then you come along and I'm not saying this is love but there's a beautiful song
I haven't heard in so long and yet the timing's all wrong
 

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Can't sleep, Don't bother counting sheep
I've come a long way from who I was in the past
Let so much of my life pass me by
I don't wonder why anymore
When it comes to the past, I closed the door
You came along and reminded me
There's more to life than just the need to breathe
Finding some direction
But I still keep up my protection
What would you say If I told you I've never let anybody too close
Never allowed myself to be too exposed
Spent my teenage years hiding in the shadows
Most of my 20's were full of manic episodes
I've pushed anyone who's ever gotten too close away
But now I feel like something's given way
I'm more willing to be vulnerable
Because the loneliness was intolerable
I have to open more and more
But the truth is I'm never fully open unless it's behind closed doors
I wish I could fully express myself to you
Show you me through all my points of view
I am more open than I've ever been
But I won't pretend, I'm always partly hiding him
 

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Karmically Cryptic
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In the past, I didn't care about my future
Now in the future, I don't care about my past
Working on myself has been the hardest task
When it comes to help, I don't usually ask
In the knowledge that solving my own problems creates growth that lasts
I still hold myself up to high standards
It's better than watching my life go by like a bystander
Perfect isn't what I'm aiming for
Just a bit better than who I was the day before
 

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I've been feeling so misunderstood
I know it's my fault for not expressing all of me as I could
The hard exterior is just a barrier
A wall I put up in my youth
That I've been slowly breaking down, exposing the truth of who I am
So much deep down, I'm afraid to break the dam
Overflowing, showing the man hidden behind walls so high they're impossible to climb
Growing up, expressing myself was treated like a crime
Told my deepness was a weakness
So I hid all my uniqueness
As I grow in time, more of myself I find
I now refuse to be anybody else other than myself
But these walls are so automatic
Letting them down is like learning a new habit
 

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Karmically Cryptic
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When emotions burst forth like an explosion
It can be hard to find yourself in all the commotion
But eventually, they calm like the tides of the ocean
When it comes to my emotions, I like to explore
To think less and feel more
Guided by my intuition and navigated with intention
Expanding into a deeper understanding
To ease the impact of any future crash landings
 

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Don't want to mind what other see, I just want to be me
The me that thought I was a mystery is history
I still have these walls that at times rise so tall
Head in clear skies but down here I still stumble and fall
A heart that's on fire from unfulfilled desire
Making its presence known, louder than a choir
Volumes of pain dialed up like an amplifier
I've tried to ignore my hearts blueprint
But it's like pretending I'm not as unique as my fingerprint
It shines so brightly my eyes squint at its glint
Been living life with my guard up
Keeping my heart locked up
Outside there's a tough skin
Never letting anybody in
But within I feel everything
Emotions flowing like a wellspring
My heart is looking for a new song to sing
So I keep hope and an open mind to what the future may bring
But I need to stay grounded and ready to reach for opportunities I can see
Because honestly not living in a daydream is still fairly new to me
 

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I saw the demons in your eyes
To their surprise, I was their demise
Fought all the lies as they arise
One by one they burnt up in the sun
It was over before it had begun
They will run but they can't hide
I will stand by your side
Set aside all of my pride
I'm not just along for the ride
 

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You take my breath away
I can't speak the words I want to say
You're the sunlight in my day
Put color in my world of grey
Feels like we're put on delay
I know you feel it too
I can't wait forever for you
You can't wait forever for me
What an awful card we drew
How can we let this be?
 

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There's a desire that underlies everything we disguise
I feel the heat when you look into my eyes
There's no defeat, we're on the edge of a rise
Love that can't be expressed lights my chest
A love we can only dream to manifest
The sound of your laughter lingers in my mind long after
Our connection spreads through me like infection
A love injection
 

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I can't get you off my mind
So sublime to make you mine
We never know what we might find
We're dancing out of time
Every moment I'm awake
My dreams you always make
I can feel the wake in energy between us
As it begins to connect and shake
For our sake, we fight the lust
There's a trust, we do what we must
Our bodies open speaking the upspoken
The fire in our eyes tell no lies
 

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Karmically Cryptic
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Random thoughts, like astronauts, lost in the abstract
When tracked back to make contact with a past act
Not an actual fact but remains intact till the impact with the present
Like a comet in descent, no way to prevent the torment
But it can be lessened to an extent without any disorient to the mind
And she comes back every time, entering every rhyme
A beauty that's impossible to define
Distracting my thought process, holding me hostage
But I want stalk holmes cause she thrills me to the bones
 
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