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I tried my hand at watercolour markers (watercolour in general) for the first time. I'm not creative, artistic or anything so I don't know why I thought I could do this. But I don't think I did half bad for my first time. I just need to stick to simple things.
 

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I thought I knew you, now it's like I see right through you
Your true colors shown, two-faced
A heart of stone and I'm left with a bitter taste
Now when I look at you I can't keep a straight face
Cause' the pain has found its resting place in the center of my chest
What the f***, I'll put you in the back of my mind with the rest
You left me with memories that can't be erased, but you can be replaced
 

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This isn't a confession, just me in self-reflection
I know many times I put on a show of perfection
In reality, it's just a form of self-protection from a fear of rejection
I tend to push people away the moment I start to feel a deeper connection
It's my fear of abandonment, though I'm learning how to better handle it
If love were a present, I'd be terrified to open it
If hope were a candle there are many times I find it hard just to keep it lit
I'm confident but I admit I still have a fear of judgment
Even though I tell myself it's nothin' and that I don't give a s***
Though I like to think of myself as emotionally intelligent
There are times I still get angry and throw a fit
Probably my PTSD but I won't let it be excused
My ego is still a bit bruised from being abused
And my mind is sometimes haunted by memories etched in my brain like tattoos
 

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I think it will be most impactful to show my main character engaging in self-destructive behavior across several chapters without any form of moralization from the narrator. I don't have to spell out the fact that something is wrong for people to grasp that is wrong. Showing the depravity without (my) the narrators input is more impactful I think. Like how Ian Bank's describes tragic, shocking things. I will also limit the amount of insight I give the reader into the character's thought pattern, is probably more realistic that way
 

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Feel in when you're around deep in my demons cease screaming
Revealing all these feelings I've been concealing
When you lean in I see the beauty in your eyes gleaming
When we're together it feels like I'm dreaming
Time seems to pass like the seasons
You've given me something to believe in
My heart's beaming for you without reason
You deepen my life's meaning
You ease all the pain and the fear
When I held you near our surroundings disappeared
I try to hide my vulnerable side
But all these feelings I can no longer deny
When it's just you and I
 

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I had such a great detailed dream that would have made a great story (happens when I drink cough medication). But again, I thought "it was such a vivid dream, no way I can forget it. I'll write it down later". Now the idea is gone...
 

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I adapt to every situation but never feel like I fit in
My heart's racing to the frustration in knowing that I'm different
Where's my home?
Sometimes I close my eyes cause I crave the unknown
Feel the blood in my veins and the pain so deep it seeps into my bones
Spent my time growing up alone with the monsters under my bed
Now they've manifested like a whisper tone conjured in my head
I try to hide all my scars
A distant stare like I'm gazing at the stars
Sometimes I feel like my body is just a host for a disembodied ghost
I feel no fear in knowing my soul wants out of here
It try to find a place away from the thunder and pouring rain combined
Just another beautiful mind waiting on the sun to shine
 

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This anxiety inside of me will not release
I fight the beast to find some peace
I sit silently as the heat rises from the inside of me
When it feels like everybody's eyeing me
I know my emotions are lying to me
I keep the rage caged within
On the outside, I look tame
Feels like my blood's boiling beneath my skin
Took on all the shame as if I were the one to blame
Made me feel like I was full of sin
I refuse to play these childish games
I know this s*** isn't pretty
I won't give in to the pity
Even if people look at me differently
I'll stay gritty
 

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I need to calm down and come back to the ground
I can hear my heart pound like it's in surround sound
Remind me there's beauty abound
Gotta stay strong and remember we only see what we choose to focus on
Haven't seen you in a day or two and it was making me blue
Sometimes I forget who I am without you
At the same time, I lose myself in you
It's not good for my health, I need to stay strong in myself
Writing a rhyme to remind me what to do
Stay true
 

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Our brain is like a mainframe that we change
It doesn't have to stay the same
My mind is my domain
I am who I became
Through all the pain
When it's pouring just let it rain
The sun will always shine again
If life was easy it wouldn't be worth livin'
I don't waste time wishing
Feel the ambition
When I feel like giving up I never give in
Fear and anxiety, I don't resist em'
I know I'm different
The real me, I'm not afraid to show it
Feel my essence, it's in my presence
When I make a mistake I take responsibility and own it
I learned my lesson
The weight on my shoulders has lessened
I'm gracious for all my blessings
Feeling weightless
Aware of all our greatness
 

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People fear what they do not understand
I'd rather be disliked for who I am
Then liked for who I'm not
I do my best to not give a damn
Sometimes I feel like an astronaut in a foreign land
I don't play pretend, I stay genuine
Overcame over analyzation through meditation
Do not try to people please
No longer freeze in conversation
Learned to get out of my head
By no longer thinking too far ahead
Don't jump to conclusions
It will only cause you confusion
Go easy on yourself cause' we're only human
Trust me, nobody has it all figured out
Everybody has to deal with worry and doubt
Find healthy ways to ease your mind
Change takes time
You'll be fine
 

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This is just completely random writing without giving much time or thought about what I'm gonna say next. Just for fun.

Too lit man, God damn
If the party's on fire from the propane
It's gonna stain my veins
And leave bloodstains in my brain
These lyrics are insane cause they don't make sense
I stay present, don't speak in past tense
Just speaking off the top of my head as I invent this flow
Lost my innocence so long ago but I had to grow
When I was younger I thought I knew everything
Now I know I know nothing
A curious mind in troubling times killing time writing nonsensical rhymes
The dark side of my mind sometimes leaves me blind to the light that shines
I don't believe in heaven but I've experienced the divine
Don't claim to know what it is just know it felt like bliss
Like being kissed by spirits lips
 

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I'm doing okay, just pain from a broken heart
What can I say? Feels like I'm being torn apart
If only I knew better at the start of us
I gave you all me too quickly, my heart and trust
Now I'm feeling sickly, finding a remedy is a must
Quick highs only provide a temporary rush
I guess only time can hush the pain
But I'll always have memories of you in my brain
 

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When I drive myself I feel alive in mind and body
Times got me by the second hand when I feel like I'm slipping and
Barely gripping reality as the barriers that hold us together fall apart around me
It can get lonely if you're the only one you know who can see
Not trying to preach or discuss, it's just an experience I'm conveying
It seems to me that possibly this is just a game we're playing
It's like we're livin' in a waking dream is all I'm saying
 

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When we parted I told myself I hated you
In reality, I couldn't face the truth that we couldn't make it through
And it wasn't all you, I played a part in it too
There was love but we're both to blame for letting it go down the drain
I played it cool while you played it like a game
I guess we let the flame burn too bright too fast, there's no way it could last
Now you're just a memory, a part of my past
Maybe I can move on at last
 

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Why do I fall in love so easily?
Feels like there's something wrong with me
Maybe it's because I never learned to love myself
Always trying to find it in someone else
But I avoid talking about love because it hurts too much
Reminds me of the few times in my life I've lost someone's touch
And all the long lonely years spent alone in between
At least my life is finding a change of scene

A few days ago I saw an old friend from my high school years
We went to a bar and had a few beers
He says he's doing good, doing fine, living his dream
Couldn't help but compare myself, took a little hit to my self-esteem
I was happy for him
but couldn't help but hurt just a bit within
I guess it's just a part of being human

Even though I'm not where I would like to be
Reminded myself life is better than it's been in any recent memory
And it's because of me and the work that I put in
Made me proud of myself and put a smile on my face again
 

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Where do we go from here?
Everything is so unclear
We keep running from the fear
But the unknown was always here
We need to take the wheel and steer

I put my heart before my head
Think before what is said
But don't think too far ahead

Don't get lost in analysis
The present is all there is
 

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When we go our separate ways
I just wish that we could stay
When I don't look your way
It's because there are things I want to say
Feelings that I just can't show
It's not the time or place to let you know
When it comes to love I tend to put my head after my heart
I know I should let this go before it starts
 
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