When did I stop laughing?
When did I start to feel like I'm lacking in every area of my life?
When did this knife appear in my chest
When did I stop getting any deep rest
When did I start feeling stressed and depressed half the time
When did my mind no longer feel like mine?
When did I start asking myself if there's even a reason for me to breathe
When did my mind start to deceive me?
When will I be free from my insecurity?
When did I stop dreaming?
What happened to my feelings?
Why am I numb?
What have I become?
When did I start feeling like I'm noone?
So cold from the loneliness I'm feeling frozen
Spending most days coping, hoping I can stay open
But then my emotions flow in leaving me feeling broken
Days pass, fading into the past
What's happening now won't last
Unable to grasp the moment
Like sand slipping through our hands
Emotions overflowing like water from broken dams
Till it all settles like a single morning dew drop on flower petal
This morning my head's feeling foggy
Looking towards the future but it's to cloudy for me to see
Despite the decreased visibility I possess the ability to express mental agility
High mobility, dodging bombs dropping like lyrical artillery
I maintain my dignity even though I know I'm sometimes lacking in humility
And it's killing me to know it would only be an act of futility
I show no sympathy, I could write a symphony that exquisitely disses the whole industry
But I'll hold back to protect my own sanity
Wish I could find a way to be happy somehow
but I'm feeling pretty crappy right now
I want to open my mind and let hope in my mind
Sometimes I find I just want to leave this place without a trace
The weekends are the hardest, take me up in space with the stardust
Take me away someplace far, to the farthest star
Someplace I can heal this scar
I've been watching diorama videos on YT for a while. They're so amazing and I'm always in awe of how stuff is made. Just decided to watch this one video that looked really intricate so I was seriously excited... only to discover all the buildings were (I think) 3D printed and shipped in. For some reason, this really disappointed me and now I feel like an *** Like, no, I don't care how much painting and scenery you did for this, why didn't you personally stack tiny bricks into multiple shapes, you lazy person?
Every image of you in my mind makes me want to cry
Sometimes I don't know how I'm making it through, left here asking why?
You were the one and every day I ask myself if there's anything I could have done?
It's truly killing me, sometimes I wake up thinking you're next to me
Then my chest gets heavy as I come back to reality
Breath deep and put a gentle intention on releasing the inner tension
Relax, allow the mind to unwind like a clenched fist releasing its grasp
Let go, gently put your attention on the breath, and let it flow naturally
Calmly relax the body, soften your heart in the center of your chest
Worry not about making mistakes just doing your best is all it takes
There's no pressure and when it comes to your worth there's no measure
Our thoughts can be deceiving and I know you may not believe me
But you don't have to for it to be true
The wind breathes through the leaves
Trees setting their roots deep
The world sleeps under the moon
Like the rising sun at noon the sleeping wake from their dreams
Streams of consciousness in a waking populace
We can cease chasing the thoughts in our mind by allowing them to run their own course
Let them run free and wild till they settle, like horses running wild in a meadow
Do not chase after the horse, be your own master, let your heart fill with laughter,
Your mind with curiosity and wonder, to feel again as you did when you were younger
Before the past and future filled you with fear, anger, sorrow, or resentment
In the present, you will find peace, love, and contentment
Do not resist for what we resist persists, let it be and you will begin to see
To realize with our real eyes, the nature of awareness in disguise
To see the beauty in the relation of the apple to the tree
To see all life in loving harmony
@Canadian Brotha If you were referring to what I wrote and meant Serenity, Tranquility, and Peace, then thank you. It's sometimes hard to tell, you may have just been pondering your creative works. By the way I like your music.👌
When you're in the darkness just relax and breathe
The light will shine soon when you let it be
You'll see with clarity through the confusion created by the shadows illusion
Nothing to fret for fear itself isn't a threat
Nor is it a promise, we never know, simply rest in the calmness
Allow the process to take place at its own pace
No need to force anything, there is no race
Each time you will see a bit more clearly to the beauty in everything that is reality
Not separate from you and me
See through the illusion of duality
Life being taken far too seriously
Life is a dance to play and sing, within the flow of everything