Honestly sometimes I feel like I'm crazy. Though I don't really know what the qualifications are for being considered crazy.It makes sense to me I've kinda been going through the same thing, I pretty much force myself to talk everyday, I went to a therapist awhile back and he wasn't helping me at all so I just decided to go on meds idk if they're helping or anything, My mind goes blank everytime I'm around someone to its like I'm braindead I'm so boring I can't even entertain myself anymore. In regards to your question it is they're job to help you I don't think they would admit you to a mental hospital cause its not like your crazy or anything but I do remember my therapist saying something like if you tell me you're going to kill yourself I will be forced to call 911 or something like that so of course I lied and told him I'm not feeling suicidal, but anyway just know you're not alone, if you need someone to talk to I'm here for you.. I know what its like I've been cutting myself for the past week just hoping I can get deep enough.
I have tried to live my life. And I failed. I'm on medication. It hasn't helped.Eh, motivation can be a problem.I can't get myself to start learning Spanish, even tho i like it
Yes, you'd end up in hospital.
And i know that you don't care, i didn't care till recently either.But what I've got to lose?Life that even shouldn't be called that?
And on suicide thing, i don't recommend it.First of all, there's a big chance you'd mess up (and end up getting send to the hospital for even longer time).Well, i did mess up..
Second, even if you're so lucky not to mess it up that much, you could end up with numerous disabilities.
Third, why don't you try living your life?I mean, what you've got to lose?From what I've read, nothing, so why not try and enjoy it, somehow?
Fourth, meds can help you a bit, with your SA, so why not try them?
I'm speaking only from my own experience, which wasn't that good and so isn't great advice to give you, but still it offers some perspective.So basically what you guys are saying is that if a therapist/doctor/whoever saw me and realized that I was depressed and suicidal and had social phobia and whatever else, they would turn me away and give up on me if I refuse treatment and don't talk (because I can't)? You'd think that if they saw I had major depression and was mentally ill and had given up on everything in my life, they'd lock me up somewhere to make sure I'm okay, instead of turning me away and giving up on me... Does this make sense? My head is like spinning right now and I'm tired so I'm sorry if it doesn't.
Neither do I, I just look at myself as deviant from the norm, it makes me feel better than the word crazy, and I don't really see why you wouldn't wanna get better, I used to be somewhat normal and was actually happy, I'd do anything to get back to that.. life can be good, Its just hard to see light when everything's so dark.Honestly sometimes I feel like I'm crazy. Though I don't really know what the qualifications are for being considered crazy.