I viewed the movie, Mean Girls.
I had seen it on the TV listings, deciding to record it -- even though I had previously found it very unpleasant to view any sort of movie or TV show featuring scenes of heterosexual sexuality (a discomfort which resulted from experiences that I wrote about here at SAS). I expected "Mean Girls" to feature quite a lot of heterosexuality, but I recorded it optimistically for the day or night on which I had recovered enough from previous events to actually view the movie from beginning to end... hopefully enjoying doing so!
This afternoon I felt ready to view the movie, quite unexpectedly. I enjoyed it a lot! I even viewed the movie until the very end of the closing credits, without anything that happened in the story preventing me from enjoying it. Perhaps people who have read my more recent threads at this forum will understand why this is such a big thing for me.
What I have discovered is that if I simply look away from the sort of movie scenes that previously triggered the bad memories -- or if I lift up both hands to block out the view of what is happening on the screen -- then viewing a movie like this is not unbearable for me anymore. Doing something like that, I still get the gist of what is happening in the story from the context and the audio. It might seem like a shame to not fully view every scene of a movie, but I honestly don't want to view any scenes of heterosexual sexuality anymore: i.e. I don't feel as if I am missing out on anything that I actually wanted to see.
I had wanted to see "Mean Girls" since viewing a Hailee Steinfeld movie in which her character says "I've seen Mean Girls!"
I love Hailee Steinfeld, so I wanted to see this movie simply because one of her movie characters said that she had viewed it. Also, I had the idea that the Hailee Steinfeld movie might have been in some ways based on "Mean Girls" -- so I expected "Mean Girls" to be in some ways a lot like another movie that I remembered enjoying so much. And I was not disappointed!
The basic story of Mean Girls comes from what I wrote in my most recent thread here at SAS (the thread about my sister). The story is also about what it was that she had chosen to do: THE THING she had done -- explained allegorically using three characters and three similar-looking pieces of equipment.
It is about Reign and Supergirl.
The name of the Regina character comes from things I wrote about my sister having previously chosen to curate the stories of a TV show so that her own behaviour was projected onto another character. Humourously -- or sadly -- the "two-faced" name of the Janis character comes from what I just wrote about my sister's projection (I looked up the movie's casting credits to remind myself of what that character's name is, after writing the first sentence of this paragraph). Janis is the goth girl who befriends Lindsay Lohan's character at the beginning of the movie.
The behaviour of the Lindsay Lohan character in trying to "bring down" the Regina character, so that she doesn't "look good" anymore, also comes from what I wrote about my sister's previous habit of projecting in the psychological sense. Basically, in this movie the Lindsay Lohan character represents me, and the Rachel McAdams character represents my sister -- even though the Rachel McAdams character has a name like Reign, and isn't very nice; and even though the plan of the Lindsay Lohan character to undermine the reputation of someone she calls her friend means that the Lindsay Lohan character behaves sort of like my sister!
To make what I said above easier to understand:
The Rachel McAdams character looks bad because my sister actually behaved very badly (and her name is Regina to represent how my sister projected her own behaviour).
The Lindsay Lohan character looking bad is mostly to do with my sister projecting her own behaviour.
The Janis character also represents me, since she is a goth who looks a lot like Carrie-Anne Moss as Trinity in "The Matrix". I am not literally a goth, but pretty much all of my clothes are black. In the movie, Janis is the former best friend of the Regina character who
obviously represents my sister (despite that character's name). Yet again -- the behaviour of Janis, who comes up with the plan to "bring down" Regina, has to do with my sister's projection; but it also has to do with what I wrote about Reign (i.e. me) not actually being a splitter, as Janis and the Lindsay Lohan character are both trying to do the same thing in the story.
The relationship between the Lindsay Lohan character and Janis also represents a single girl who disapproves of herself for having an affection for the girl she is exposing: with the "exposing" in this context referring to me having posted that thread about my sister. I love my sister and I find her very attractive, but I am not going to put up with her sh*t anymore.
The Rachel McAdams character is the "Supergirl" of this movie, and the same actress also played Esti Kuperman in the lesbian movie Disobedience (in which she played the lesbian lover of Rachel Weisz' character). Obviously Rachel McAdams looks a lot more like Odette Annable than she looks like Melissa Benoist...
The movie contains lots of other themes and references that have to do with what happened between me and my sister -- with many of those themes and references coming from what I wrote here in the thread about my sister. I am not going to explain all of those things in this post though.
Towards the end of Mean Girls, there is a weird scene with a sort of team-building exercise involving different characters allowing theirselves to fall backwards to be safely caught by their classmates. The Janis character -- who looks like Trinity from The Matrix -- declares that she has a lesbian crush on Regina, then she makes a sort of American Indian battle cry sound: the exact same sort of sound made by the female lead singer for Ukraine from Eurovision 2021, at the end of her song. And in my SAS forum thread, "What Eurovision 2021 Means", I described that singer as looking like Carrie-Anne Moss as Trinity from The Matrix.
I was just looking at a filmography for Rachel McAdams at Wikipedia. Take a look at the names and titles associated with her most recent movie projects, if you want to. I wanted to make it obvious that I am not a fraud: that I actually am the Goddess, as I say I am. I got what I wanted, I suppose! I don't want to frighten anyone though.