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I feel like I'm stuck. I thought I was getting close to beating SA but I'm not sure. When ever I talk to people I feel almost nothing, any anxiety I feel is incredibly small, almost not there. The problem though is that I still cant talk to people. I dont know why. Last year when I came to my school, my anxiety was intense, I felt terrible anxiety every day, the whole day at school, and it would get worse at lunch. This year, I feel better, I can eat lunch and I dont suffer from anxiety the moment I walk in the door. I even sit with a bunch of people at lunch now, including some hot girls
. I just cant talk to them or anyone else. When ever I do, I feel like something is blocking me. I feel like my old anxiety is in me stopping me from being social but just not as intense as it used to be.
The only time I feel any large amounts of anxiety is when I do presentations. On monday I did 2 presentations. The first one was for english class and it was pretty bad. I was stuttering badly, mixing up my words, and forgetting things to say. The second presentation was for my senior project. I did not feel much anxiety and I could speak normally.
Basically I think my brain is somehow trying to block anxiety but I think my brain is also blocking me from being social. I need to talk to my teacher for my one last project but there is something that makes me not want to talk to him. Perhaps my anxiety has trained my mind to not like being around people and to do anything to avoid them.
I cant be myself anymore. When ever I talk to people, my voice goes monotone and I can never carry a conversation. My mind goes absolutely blank. I cant even tell myself to say something.
I dont know what to do. I dont even know what the **** is wrong with me. After I leave to go basic training I probably wont ever see my old friends again. I dont know if I can make friends the way I am now and I dont want to be alone anymore.
The only time I feel any large amounts of anxiety is when I do presentations. On monday I did 2 presentations. The first one was for english class and it was pretty bad. I was stuttering badly, mixing up my words, and forgetting things to say. The second presentation was for my senior project. I did not feel much anxiety and I could speak normally.
Basically I think my brain is somehow trying to block anxiety but I think my brain is also blocking me from being social. I need to talk to my teacher for my one last project but there is something that makes me not want to talk to him. Perhaps my anxiety has trained my mind to not like being around people and to do anything to avoid them.
I cant be myself anymore. When ever I talk to people, my voice goes monotone and I can never carry a conversation. My mind goes absolutely blank. I cant even tell myself to say something.
I dont know what to do. I dont even know what the **** is wrong with me. After I leave to go basic training I probably wont ever see my old friends again. I dont know if I can make friends the way I am now and I dont want to be alone anymore.