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I hid my period from them for... at least a month. I forget, it might have been two months. I first got my period on a cruise ship vacation. Don't ask me how I hid it, I didn't even have pads because I didn't tell anyone. I don't even remember at this point, to be honest. I look back on that time and wonder how I did it.
 

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My money that I made from selling video games to my middle school classmates in 2006.

I purchase a laptop with the money, because I was tired of going to the library to use the computer to do my homeworks and tired of renting video game magazines from the library.
 
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Personal diary, anything that hints a clue to my personal life outside of home, anything that hints leisure and hobbies, snacks/drinks we bought from school, evidences of having had friends over, our report cards in the mail, our doctor visit results, being sick etc.

Feeling under the weather, but having to hide it in fear of being yelled at for faking or not taking care of ourselves, that was the worst. And then having teachers obviously knowing I am under the weather at school and calling my mom to send me home, and I get yelled at for being a hassle to her and the family.

The most traumatizing one was having hidden 4 pet hamsters my sister and I got in secret from a nearby pet store out of excitement. We hid them behind the bed for 2 months before my mom found them when my sister was away from weekend camp and I got careless and left them out after feeding them. My mom simply disposed them by dumping them out into the nearby grass field. My sister was distraught when she returned home to find them gone. Oddly she was more angry at me for being careless more than at my mom for dumping them. Within the next week, I found the carcass of one of them nearby. Another week later, my sister found the carcass of a second one. She started obsessively looking for the remaining two hamster dead or alive, but never found them. Not long later, my sister's friends gifted her a pair of guinea pigs for her birthday to make her feel better. But she instantly gave them away knowing my mom will just do the same to them once she find them. When my mom found out she gave them away instantly, she told my sister that was the right decision since we were too incompetent to care for the hamsters and let them escape. So she gaslighted the fact that the hamsters escaped instead of her dumping them.
 

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I saw one of my goldfish die when I was 12, but I wasn’t sure. It went into its little rock house and turned white, then stopped moving. I felt like I should have been able to save it somehow, so I blamed myself for its death, and felt too bad to tell anyone. It was all I could think of for the next day, and I couldn’t stop crying when I told them. My family got me a little doll figurine to help me feel better.

Besides that, sometimes I hid my pain because I didn’t want them to think I was faking headaches so I could take painkillers when I didn’t really need them. I don’t know why I thought like that, but I used to feel weird about taking them. My parents never said anything to make me think that way, but I had heard of other people who were like it, and I’ve always been an overthinker.
 

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I'm going to be really obvious here, but all the porn. I was fretting each time my computer was taken away for repairs. And when it comes to written porn, I left stacks of printed pages behind when I went to uni. My parents moved my stuff out of my old room and one day, when visiting, I found all of it again. I don't know whether they read any of it but it would have made them very uncomfortable.
 
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Wow, what a coincidence, rabidfoxes.

To start from the beginning with my mini-story, I don't remember my age back then, guess I was 10 or something. One day I was searching through the wardrobe in my room, and I came across my parent's porn collection magazines.

They were hidden in the back, masked with some clothes. Discovering these was a big thing for me as they were the only source of porn I could get at the time, the internet wasn't a thing and I as a kid couldn't get 18+ magazines or CDs from the store. What can I say, they served me well through my teenage years. Ok, this is getting embarrassing, I'm gonna stop here.
 
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My actual self, I hid it behind behavior I imitated from others in an attempt to fit in. I acted in a completely inauthentic way.

I also hid my social anxiety and everything that comes with it. They didn't know how much I've struggled until my twenties. It took years for my father specifically to accept it. We didn't communicate very well until just a few years ago. Now we do, and he has a pretty good idea what my fear is like.
 

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I saw one of my goldfish die when I was 12, but I wasn’t sure. It went into its little rock house and turned white, then stopped moving. I felt like I should have been able to save it somehow, so I blamed myself for its death, and felt too bad to tell anyone. It was all I could think of for the next day, and I couldn’t stop crying when I told them. My family got me a little doll figurine to help me feel better.

Besides that, sometimes I hid my pain because I didn’t want them to think I was faking headaches so I could take painkillers when I didn’t really need them. I don’t know why I thought like that, but I used to feel weird about taking them. My parents never said anything to make me think that way, but I had heard of other people who were like it, and I’ve always been an overthinker.
This is beautiful. "hugs"
 

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I can't think of very much that I would have hidden, although once I stashed beer in my closet - my mother found it and sent me to a substance abuse counselor🤣I had completely forgotten about that, I think I was 16 or 17 at the time . When I talked to the counselor we both had a laugh at the entire thing and he calmed my mother down enough that she was no longer convinced I was a raging alcoholic.

It was really nasty beer too, "Golden Anniversary" the name in of itself to me is hilarious, and the taste appropriate. Anyway, I remember the night I bought it, I had a friend over for the night and we were so scared of going out of the room that we pissed out the window of my bedroom on the second floor 😅 Oh gawd, that was funny.

I couldn't really hide anything in my house, there was no real privacy. I mean, even a beer stuffed in the back of my closet was discovered while I was out of the house.

Oh, I do recall hiding my veggies under the mash potatoes, or in my glass of milk. I used to do that all the time, because my parents would insist that we ate them all. Because it was often our responsibility to wash the dishes after dinner, I would volunteer over my other brothers and just dump them later. That was like my mission impossible thing back in the day.
 

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My actual self, I hid it behind behavior I imitated from others in an attempt to fit in. I acted in a completely inauthentic way.

I also hid my social anxiety and everything that comes with it. They didn't know how much I've struggled until my twenties. It took years for my father specifically to accept it. We didn't communicate very well until just a few years ago. Now we do, and he has a pretty good idea what my fear is like.
I hid my anxiety from people too - especially my father, because of the way he responded once or twice when I tried to tell him. I hid it from my friends back then as well. Actually I still do to a large extent, I only really tell people that I'm very close to - I just don't think they can relate to it. In fact I know they can't.

The only other thing I really hid from my parents, or my mother anyway, was when I got my first real gf at 17. She was pretty religious and didn't like it too much.
 

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How completely despondent, lost and suicidal I was.
 

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I'm going to be really obvious here, but all the porn.
Oh, haha. How could I forget that? I had a huge stack of hand-drawn and hand-written porn. I was always terrified someone would find it because, honestly, it was pretty weird. This was way back before I had a computer and long before the Internet. You really had to roll your own back in the day.
 

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I hid a lot from my mom. Honestly, it wasn't her business to know and she would have given speech after speech so i kept it to myself. It didnt make me a worst man in the end and i saved my mom many headaches. I gave her enough already at the time.
 

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My naughty Google searches and my Limewire/Kazza use.
 
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