So my therapist has been trying to get me to go to this young adults group therapy thing for a little while and I finally was able to force myself to go today. I just kept telling myself, "You can do this" over and over. When my mind tried to sneak negative thoughts into my head about what if I was put on the spot or what I should say I blocked it all out. I made myself only take one step at a time. Step one, being just drive there. Go into the office, etc. etc. After pushing myself thus far, I find myself infront of the door to the group therapy and there is a sign that says all groups were cancelled today. Of course I felt a rush of relief but after all that anxiety and pushing myself like that I was disappointed. Despite everything though, I'm pretty proud of myself for just getting to the door today. I know it may seem small, but it's a big deal to me and I'm proud of myself. Next week for real.