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Ok im finally at the point where I know I have a problem in social situations. Yesterday was probably one of the worst social settings I have ever been in. I was meeting a girl who I have not seen in more than 4 years. My anxiety is worse when im around girls so much more than other times. I have had a crush on her for a while and just feel horrible the way I was so fumbly yesterday. Its time that I want to face my problems. I don't want to feel like when I go somewhere everyone is watching and judging every step I make. I want to be able to start a conversation and hold one. I want to be able to look someone in the eye confidently. I want to be able to walk down the street without worrying when someone is coming from the opposite direction I go grabbing my phone as a security blanket. I don't even know where to start with trying to get this out of my life. I didnt even really know I had something that was an actual problem until after feeling horrible last night about myself I did some research and googled this. I guess im just kinda venting right now.
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