I think I might be asexual or something...or someone that does not enjoy sex. I don't think it is that great. The few times I have had sex I gave up because I was bored...I just wasn't enjoying myself. So..I would say..don't worry about it.
I used to care about it, I don't think I should anymore, I'm engaged. But I'm still cause it's my choice but I don't know. Enough loneliness can disrupt everything. If I wasn't getting married I'd still be virgin, I am too conscious of myself.
I'm 18, been waiting for the right girl, not for marriage but comfort. I want someone who I could be tender with, let all my anger ease away. Maybe love... something close. Sometimes I wish I'd just lose it already. In this society, perhaps that will be the case.