I am new to this site and am even nervous typing this. I am 42 and realize that I have had S/A most of my adult life. I am tired of being anxious around people and would like to do so many things but can't because of this. I want to be a different person, and can even see myself being that person but when it comes down to actual situations I crumble. At my age I want the confidence and experience to carry me but it doesn't. I am nervous on the phone and, in most social situations whether one on one or a group. My job is working with children which I love but, it also entails dealing with many adults which I don't like. I blush all the time and smile too much like another person mentioned and feel like an idiot most of the time. thanks for listening.