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I feel like my default state is dead and through some strange cosmic accident I'm alive somehow.
Said almost the same thing to my friend earlier. I really should be dead by now, but for some reason I'm not.😄Might explain why I always have the weirdest feeling that I'm actually in purgatory. 🤔
 

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I often have this weird notion that entropy is the true 'ruler' of this universe because nothing can escape it... perhaps not even the universe itself, if the "heat death" theory is to be believed.
I think I have the same feeling, and have for a long time. Everything has felt temporary, and there has long been a feeling of loss in my mind - even for things I still have in my life. I remember hearing that poem as a child, and it resonated with me even then.
 

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Had vaccine an hour or so ago, no symptoms so far hopefully it doesn't get bad.

There was this cool graffiti'd area I didn't notice before in town, it was sort of video game themed the building next to it was just a casino though which is disappointing. Should have been a cool indie arcade.
Update: my arm is fairly bad quite a bit of pain trying to change t-shirts/tops or lifting arm at all (I'm not used to body pain besides bad period cramps,) but I think it's slightly better maybe than it was last night? No other side effects yet though.
 

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In one of those episodes where everyone and everything is getting on my nerves and making me anxious. Mental health has been expectionally bad this week. Thankfully, I speak with my therapist today and I can unload some of this misery building up inside me.
 

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I feel like society puts too much emphasis on how girls need to look. And what qualities are considered attractive. Wish I was a guy
 

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For once, actually waiting to buy something I wanted yielded a good savings. I remember seeing these smart bulbs at Costco like a couple years ago and the price was not terrible but still pretty high for light bulbs (I mean, light bulbs you can do tricks with and control with your voice are still really just light bulbs). I think they were like $25 the first time I saw them.

Was there today and they were on sale for $9 for two of them so I snagged them. The best thing about them is being able to turn them on and off with Alexa. I do frequently fall asleep with my lights on because I'm just too tired to get up and do anything and/or I am not sure if I'm really "I'm gonna sleep for hours" tired or just gonna sleep for a half hour or so (although realistically, I pretty much just don't do short naps and almost always sleep way longer than I thought I would).

So I set up a routine with Alexa so that when I say the keyword, "she" will wait 20 minutes and turn the light off. If I can remember to utilize it, that will be kinda nice.

At least (in the grand scheme of things) the price isn't terrible. It still seems a bit steep for something that definitely has a finite lifespan. Maybe 3 years if I'm lucky.

Oh man. These things were working like a dream with the Echo Dot until today. I even made a routine where I'd tell the Dot "bedtime" and after about a minute the light would dim to 15% and then after another couple of minutes it would dim to 6% and stay there for another ten minutes and then turn off. Usually more than enough time for me to fall asleep. Was so neat.

I don't know what happened but both bulbs suddenly stopped responding today. Absolutely nothing I did made any difference. I finally got it working again but it was a major PITA. It's super cool when it works but this is an idea that needs some work. The initial setup was more complicated than I thought it was going to be too. I suspect it's going to be one of those gadgets that just goes wonky from time to time and eventually gives you more gray hair.
 

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Saw a rabbit sitting under the bottom edge of the fence that goes around the dumpster. Kind of an odd place for a bunny to sit. I've seen that same rabbit there before more than once so I guess it just likes it there or something. It usually runs away but I started talking to it and it stayed, weirdly. The more I talked the more comfortable it looked. I just kind of stood there close. Really cool. Rabbits are usually super skittish.
 

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I can't believe how lovely this GP is. She's probably not much older than my son and I used to think she probably lacked the experience to be a good doctor, but she genuinely cares and goes out of her way to try and help me. She's even been calling me every couple of days lately to make sure I'm okay. I don't think I've ever known a doctor like her.
 

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This state of perpetual confusion, desire, & fear is one of the reasons I’ve never pursued dating/relationships, I find all the emotions of it so overwhelming & I’ve never been good at dealing with my emotions…that plus SA at the same time, quite a combo…I’m wound to the max with no clue where I stand with her
 

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Thinking to go to a meetup next week. It is to do some activity and then they said they're going to the pub after, might skip this bit :) See how my first day of volunteering goes tomorrow too.
 

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Thinking of ways to get revenge on my backstabbing colleagues. In reality, I will just forgive, forget and move on.. but right now I'm kinda mad and sad that people I thought I could trust have let me down.
 

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Video editing takes me way too long. I started working on this minutes after the trailer was released too lol, I have no idea how people can have trailer reaction videos up like an hour after. Though to be fair the way I did this was kind of stupid and overly intricate.
 

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I can't believe how lovely this GP is. She's probably not much older than my son and I used to think she probably lacked the experience to be a good doctor, but she genuinely cares and goes out of her way to try and help me. She's even been calling me every couple of days lately to make sure I'm okay. I don't think I've ever known a doctor like her.
Recently had a conversation about this with my housemate too. I think GP is really someone who will listen rather than experience. Since they really serve the purpose of referrals for the most part. Experienced doctors tend to be less willing to listen and stuck on their ways "I know it all, I've seen it all" attitude. They are more close minded. Specialists I think are probably the ones you want with more experience and skill.
 
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