is so awkward. it feels really stop start. Like no matter what I do I can't captivate people. I used to be able to when I was young. It's like my anxiety turns people off - and they'd probably like me once they got to know me. I feel like I never get past the acquaintance stage. I either come on too strong to people or don't try to get to know them at all. Middle grounds don't seem to help either. I feel like I never no where to go - to take things to the next level - especially with girls.