This weekend, I plan on researching therapists in my area that deal with SAD and finally trying to get my life on track. This is REALLY difficult for me. I've never had therapy before and I'm almost 40. I keep telling myself stuff like: your too old to get help, you can't afford it, you'll get the wrong therapist that doesn't understood SAD, your boss will find out and think your crazy, your family will think your crazy, you'll be exposed as the nut case they all thought you were anyway, it won't work with your work schedule, you'll be considered weak, you've lived with it for 40 years it won't change anyway so why bother etc, etc. WHEW! Can anyone out there give me some words of encouragement to just pick up that phone and make the first step. This is SO hard for me. Ughhhh! Thank you in advance.