Many times I wasn't or am not. It depends on the day too that I'm asked. Today I am because the weather is nice and I think the meds might be working. But there are/were definitely times where I was not happy to be here. It sucked.
I WANT to live on a fundamental level (because the human mind is hardwired to survive above all else) but I am not particularly happy about my existence. It would be more accurate to say I wish I had never existed. I want to live but if I'm being honest, I'm not really having a good time and there are many circumstances in my life that make me utterly miserable at least as often as I'm happy.
But I mean, when I do have good times when I can forget all the bad stuff (temporarily) they are nice. It's just that the bad stuff is always gonna come back and it's the kind of stuff that is eventually going to not be able to be "kicked down the road" (so to speak) anymore. Eventually, it's gonna be time to pay the piper and I'm broke (in more ways than one).
No, every day is low-level torment. If I had an easy, reliable way out I would have taken it years ago and on almost any given day since. I expect it to get worse, not better, as I get older and my health deteriorates. There's no magic bullet to fix things, either - I envy those posters who fixate on one thing like virginity or their hairline. No, my issues are with the world - I hate it for so many reasons along with almost everyone in it, myself included. I'm outraged that I was even born, I never asked to be here and I'm not given a way to leave. I'm supposed to bear this existence while my mind unravels and my body rots to the point of shutting down.
Interesting, one man pushed the button 190 times "I'm not sure what was up with him" Prof Wilson said :spit
Existence in general is pain though, the 3 most common things most of us have to do at some point for an easier life are painful ie: school, work & exercise & that's even without relationships, accidents, disease, mental illness, murder, rape etc the list is endless.
So in my opinion it's easier to see why people would choose pain over boredom cause that's the point.