Lol, thanks for your reassurance, colonel.
Let me be clearer, I'm hoping to draw some more people in: very often (like most people with SA) I think about what other people are thinking about me. So when I think about what they're thinking about me, I'll say to myself (often aloud, if I'm alone): "oh, he's not doing so well" for example. So it makes a little more sense if you imagine someone else saying it. But I'm obsessive about it. I find myself doing it all the time and when I'm alone I say it aloud. It almost to the point where it makes up the majority of my inner dialogue, especially if I am alone. So if anyone saw me on camera, they would likely think I was out of mind (and maybe rightfully so).
Some people have got to do that, right? It seems almost natural to me. Maybe it is a way of distancing myself from my emotions, or maybe it is just a compulsion, or maybe I am just nuts.
I realize even if other people do this, it's not the sort of thing most people would want to admit. So I'm not exactly expecting many replies.