Whatever you give energy to, persists. After 20 years with SA and related complications, this is all I have in the end. Years of self and professional diagnosis, it has come to this. To me this is the key. We give it so much energy and thought. No wonder your worn out, it consumes you. The fact is that we have a compulsive disorder, so drawn to harbour on thoughts, dwell on feelings and analyse the stuffing out of any strange thought or inclination we deem to be slightly out of whack with what we percieve to be normal. So its all perfectionism, fasle perceptions and latching on to something that somehow we find so incredibly interesting and addictive, yet so terribly destructive. Your high intelligence and curious mind have taken you hostage. Yes, stupid is peace and happiness. I still know which one I would take in a handout. I try to occupy my mind with other things, exercise cannot be overated and above all, recognize and dismiss intruding thoughts for what they are and chuckle at your brains amazing efforts and ability to try and distract you. Its almost playing a game, and we take way to much notice. Ahhh, I know its not this simple but there is a key element in here somewhere. Somehow, somewhere, sometime, we took it all to seriously and we forgot how to stop it. Even so, I still suffer, athough I am a lot better than I was 20 years ago, thats for sure. Peace to you my intelligent friends.