I went to the grocery store today to pick up like 2 items, and it was unusually crowded and busy. My anxiety was really going through the roof. There were people everywhere I turned. I had this strange feeling overcome me. It felt like I didn't belong there, and I asked myself "Why did I even come?" It was an awful feeling, I almost decided to put the stuff back on the shelf and just leave the market. There were a couple of people who were conversing with each other and they suddenly stopped talking when I walked past them. The only thought that went through my mind is that I am so uncomfortable and under so much stress that it is showing through my face. I forced myself to stand on the huge line, and I was actually hyperventilating. I began breathing fast and my heart was racing. All the people on line were so close to me. I was begging god to not break out into tears. I managed to buy the stuff and leave the store, but I did (mentally) beat myself up as I left. I called myself a moron, incapable of life. I tell myself "If you can't even buy stuff at the grocery store, how will you ever do anything?" It makes me very scared and upset at the same time.