Here lately I've been coming here to the forum and talking about this disorder and I've found a couple places to chat online about it. The more open I am about it the worse I seem to feel. Keeping it to myself and just avoiding anything that aggravates my SA was working much better. Now, all I do is dwell on the fact that I have SA and that I'm never going to have a normal life and I'm sinking into a depression. Yesterday at work I was sitting in an office all by myself doing my work. Normally I do that to avoid interruptions and I'm able to get my work done much sooner. Well, sitting there alone in the office with nothing but silence and the intermittent ringing of the phone, I started getting so depressed that my eyes were welling up with tears. I just kept thinking, "This is it, this is my life". I want this to end. I can't take it much longer. I'm sick and tired of being a pathetic baby who can't do anything. When will I be able to go to a restaurant and actually order something and eat? When will I be able to pick up the phone to call someone just so say hello? When will I be able to ask my boss a question? When will I be able to go to a store to return something? When will I be able to go to the movies and purchase a ticket? When will I be able to invite people over to my home? When will I be able to drive again? Ugh!!!!! I'm so angry at this!! I'm pretty much at my wits end and don't know what to do anymore.