Mostly I think I feel guilty about it. I feel like a loser for not being able to let my past go. I feel weak because I keep letting my past hurt me. I feel shallow for caring so much about what other people think. I feel unreedemable for all of the irresonsible and mean things i've done to escape my anxiety. In essence it would be like saying "Signifigant other, I know you think I'm just wierd but infact I'm a real loser that is shallow, stupid, mean and irresponsible. That's who I feel like I am, that's what I'm hiding from people. What I'm afraid they see when they look at me, or hear in every word I say.