[Rebfancy]

I feel depressed too. Everything I do takes a lot of effort. I don't want to do anything, but just sitting in front of the computer and TV are driving my crazy! I'm too scared to actually go out and get a job and be alone in life, so I just sit here miserable, trying to force myself to do the things I need to do. I can't become interested in anything. Just the thought of a job and having to go into work every single day for so many hrs. just depresses me even more, especially when there aren't any jobs available that I'd like even the slightest.
Like someone else said, I just keep sitting here, waiting for something to happen, even though I know nothing's going to happen unless I make it happen.
Due to all of this keeping me from being able to get a job, I don't have any medical coverage, so I can't afford to see a doctor. I just don't know what to do; I feel completely stuck. And, to top it all off, I don't have anyone to support me in this. My step-dad just tells me to go out and get a job and my mom just says to not let it bother you and go on. But, they have no idea how difficult this is. It's not as simple as just go out and do things. That's extremely difficult. They'll tease me about it and joke around with my fears (like watching a scary movie turned up loud where I can hear it in my room at night) and that just makes things more difficult by adding more anxiety.
I just wish I knew what to do to get out of this downward spiral that is my life right now!!!!!!!!