[mpj7256]

I've had this problem for a few years i guess, but it's somewhat out of my control... i find it hard to talk to people without smiling, unless it's really serious and adversely affects me and i 'hear' what they are saying but i don't take it in. Some days i am fine, other days i won't go into shops etc because i can't bare to feel stupid or have someone think i am weird, whether they think this or not. Sometimes i hope i feel slightly angry so it changes my attitude at the time, so i can seem more 'normal'.

Living in a small town sucks, there is no anonimity and people have their opinions on everybody else already, i am afraid that people are going to think i'm a bit of a weird one, and actually i'm surprised i haven't had people say something already.

 

[mpj7256]

cheers for the input people, of course it's always better to smile than frown. But i guess i'm frowning on the inside, it's not just that, it's also i get upset because it's a nervous reaction that i can't control and i feel stupid and slightly helpless because of it. someone could ask me something serious, someone i don't know.. and i'd still probably smile, although i am trying to understand their cause. This is a problem. Having said that, it's great to have a place such as this website, because we can discuss out issues in clear light. Nobody is perfect, but we can sometime convince ourselves that we're the only one's having problems, but in reality we've all got our smiley things going on.