[Dug]

I'm sinking fast here I think - I have no idea what to do - what do successful people do? I used to take some medication and in all honesty, i think I took it for the placebo affect - I can't bring myself to call and make an appointment with my oblivious doctor - Over the past 4 months I've managed to force myself to actually make the call 3 times - and the office was closed every time. Now i can't do that. I know my friends just think I'm crazy and though they are well-intentioned, call and I shudder and pretend the phone isn't ringing, knowing that isolating myself is about the worst thing. I used some accumulated overtime to take a little time off to try and mellow out, but I'm now more anxious than ever - someone tell me a mantra or a spell or some voodoo that I can do that will ease this craziness.

 

[Dug]

I'm not sure that would have helped, but no, they don't have an after hours answering machine/service. Health Care here is getting dismal. This is a GP I'm talking about. I really gave up on psychiatry many years ago, when I was severely depressed, it was a necessary change of lifestyle that surprisingly got me out of that pit. This is so different...

 

[Dug]

Thanks, I don't know what motivated me to post a query here, just scrambling for a new idea... taking medication was sort of a psychological trick i played on myself I think - to be honest I don't think it ever really did much but give me side effects. It was the only thing I that seemed to be proactive. I appreciate your responses by the way - I was sort of typing here to express myself a little I think - it's such a ridiculous thing to be so hampered by irrational ideas, ones i don't really even understand myself, and that are in and of themselves embarrassing. It's actually funny to imagine that a person like me would seek out a social environment to disclose socialization issues.