I'm sinking fast here I think - I have no idea what to do - what do successful people do? I used to take some medication and in all honesty, i think I took it for the placebo affect - I can't bring myself to call and make an appointment with my oblivious doctor - Over the past 4 months I've managed to force myself to actually make the call 3 times - and the office was closed every time. Now i can't do that. I know my friends just think I'm crazy and though they are well-intentioned, call and I shudder and pretend the phone isn't ringing, knowing that isolating myself is about the worst thing. I used some accumulated overtime to take a little time off to try and mellow out, but I'm now more anxious than ever - someone tell me a mantra or a spell or some voodoo that I can do that will ease this craziness.