i've been dealing with social anxiety ever since i can remember...its getting so much worse lately i dont know what to do. i get so incredibly nervous just to go places like the grocery store, the mall, or the hair salon. i literally put off getting necessities, clothes, and getting my hair done just so i dont have to deal with people. as soon as i do go out, i start feeling a panic attack coming on. my heart races, and i feel like i can't breathe and the slightest thing makes me blush. and when i say blush, its not a cute little pinkness in the cheeks...its like fullblown, beet red all over my face and neck. i get stared at when this happens and it makes it even worse. someone can literally just ask me in the store saying oh where did you get your tennis shoes, and there it is...my face brighttt red. it gets so embarrassing i can barely function without having panic attacks. i used to try to deal with my blushing because i thought it would pass but as im getting older it seems to get worse. i thought i could always count on family for understanding and not making it awkward for me when i do blush, but they seem to be almost worse than people i dont know at all. they get all awkward themselves and just stare like im some freakshow.
i mean i do have some good days where i barely blush at all, i just wish that could be everyday...
im a college student and its so difficult to go to school everyday. im so afraid of being called on and asked a question. just the other day one of my teachers called on me and made me look like a fool in front of the entire class and of course i was majorly red and it was just a horrible experience. i even ditched the next class meeting because i was so humilitated..i can't keep going on like this. i need to live my life and i want to live a carefree life. but im so afraid of the furture, all i think about is oh what if i get a job someday and my blushing interfers, or what if i find that one special guy that wants to marry me, how is he going to react to the blushing and the panic attacks..i just dont know how im going to make it in life with this constant anxiety. i need help and i just always tell myself, why are you blushing? that was not embarrassing...i just really wish i could get over this...
im supposed to go with friends tonight to a little get together and im literally anxious and nervous about it and all ive been thinking about is, what happens when i get to be the center of attention and i start blushing? ughh. helpppp..
i mean i do have some good days where i barely blush at all, i just wish that could be everyday...
im a college student and its so difficult to go to school everyday. im so afraid of being called on and asked a question. just the other day one of my teachers called on me and made me look like a fool in front of the entire class and of course i was majorly red and it was just a horrible experience. i even ditched the next class meeting because i was so humilitated..i can't keep going on like this. i need to live my life and i want to live a carefree life. but im so afraid of the furture, all i think about is oh what if i get a job someday and my blushing interfers, or what if i find that one special guy that wants to marry me, how is he going to react to the blushing and the panic attacks..i just dont know how im going to make it in life with this constant anxiety. i need help and i just always tell myself, why are you blushing? that was not embarrassing...i just really wish i could get over this...
im supposed to go with friends tonight to a little get together and im literally anxious and nervous about it and all ive been thinking about is, what happens when i get to be the center of attention and i start blushing? ughh. helpppp..
