Hello all. I`ve been battling various demons my whole life. Tonight has been a particularly bad night and after a vicious breakdown and searching google for help-lines, I came across this site and social anxiety is where it all began. From about 8 years old on, I was afraid of what people were thinking of me. I couldn`t look anyone in the eye for more than 2 seconds. Wasn`t allowed to fail in the eyes of my mom,therefore, I couldn`t fail in any aspect of my life. As a teenager, I was depressed, violent towards inanimate objects (furniture), harming myself. I have now been on Cipralex for a year but it doesn`t hp as much as I would like. My anxiety isn`t quite as bad as I am capable of thinking more rationally but I`m still extremely sensitive about my physical appearance and how people may be viewing me. I still avoid social situations where I will be forced to interact with strangers (ie weddings) and I get claustrophobic in large groups. The only time I`m comfortable around strangers are in my "safe" zones like home and work. I also have minor OCD and suffer from seasonal affective disorder. Basically, one giant basketcase. It`s my biggest fear that my kids will turn out like me. I watch my 5 year old daughter in awe as she socializes confidantly with anyone. Anyway, I apologize for the novel but I did condense it. I`m hoping this forum will become an outlet for me as I have many friends but no one I see regularly and certainly nobody I can talk to.