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I'm talking about with immediate family here, close family. Does anyone else get SA even around them sometimes?
I'm usually quite comfortable just talking to them one-on-one (about most things) but in "family" situations i get anxious and uncomfortable sometimes so i usually just try and avoid them. My mum complains that i spend too much time up here in my bedroom alone and although a part of me knows she's probably right, i hate activites like watching tv with them because we don't tend to watch the same type of stuff and i always avoid having to choose what we watch because i get paranoid they'll think what i like is stupid/boring. For these reasons i much prefer watching tv on my own unless i know it's something we both like. My room is like my sanctuary, the one place where i can totally relax and be myself, but even in here i find myself hiding things from my family - if i see one of them coming into my room and i'm watching tv/a dvd (or if they are within hearing distance of what i'm watching) i usually quickly change the channel or lower/mute it; when i'm online on my laptop i'll often minimize windows when i'm out of the room in case they happen to see what site i'm on (they're both pretty PC illiterate).
These are only a couple of examples, there are plenty more but i'm too tired to think of them right now.
I'm usually quite comfortable just talking to them one-on-one (about most things) but in "family" situations i get anxious and uncomfortable sometimes so i usually just try and avoid them. My mum complains that i spend too much time up here in my bedroom alone and although a part of me knows she's probably right, i hate activites like watching tv with them because we don't tend to watch the same type of stuff and i always avoid having to choose what we watch because i get paranoid they'll think what i like is stupid/boring. For these reasons i much prefer watching tv on my own unless i know it's something we both like. My room is like my sanctuary, the one place where i can totally relax and be myself, but even in here i find myself hiding things from my family - if i see one of them coming into my room and i'm watching tv/a dvd (or if they are within hearing distance of what i'm watching) i usually quickly change the channel or lower/mute it; when i'm online on my laptop i'll often minimize windows when i'm out of the room in case they happen to see what site i'm on (they're both pretty PC illiterate).
These are only a couple of examples, there are plenty more but i'm too tired to think of them right now.