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So I would like to take up running. Why? It can involve one person without it looking weird, it's good cardiovascular exercise, it can help me boost my self esteem, it gives me something to get up in the morning for, and most importantly if I run early in the day I don't have to feel guilty about spending the rest of my time playing video games and watching My Little Pony. Instead of procrastinating like I always do, I thought if I bought a pair of shoes it would give me some incentive to take it up so I don't punch myself for wasting money. I bought some snazzy shoes to help push myself into it and then I suddenly became violently whacked over the head by a harrowing amount of anxiety like the old days. "I'll look stupid!" "How can I run? I'm a pasty white nerd!" "Remember that time you ran after the bus after work and looked like a fool? Imagine that for 20 minutes nonstop!"
So yeah...I still haven't started my first run.
I didn't have a great er...experience at school - especially when it came to anything athletic. I got laughed at in P.E and what not. I wasn't the first person and I'm not the last to have my confidence kicked so let's not try to dwell on those issues too much. I try to move on but good God the voices keep coming back. :sus Judging eyes and conceited pointing. Everyone staring at me. Escalating in a calamitous maelstrom of droll arrogance reinforcing my physical ineptitude and just making me want to go back inside, give up on healthy living and instead attempting to finally get the Conference Call Shotgun in Borderlands 2. (Seriously, **** that drop rate)
All flippancy aside, I really would like to start running. I've been doing basic bodyweight compound exercises (Push ups, Pull ups etc.) the past few weeks and have noticed an improvement in my strength which has made me feel much better. However, I'd like to lose some body fat too and I think running (and good nutrition) would do well and really help my confidence. A new hobby and goal can keep me motivated/not depressed but I'm still too afraid to go outside due to shyness/anxiety or whatever you call it. So to anyone who's been in the same position (or a similar one) and moved on from it, how did you overcome your fears? Any kind of advice would be helpful so I can read it and repeat it in my head whenever I get second thoughts about lacing up my shoes.
tl;dr - I want to run in public but I'm scared - waaaaaaah.
So yeah...I still haven't started my first run.
I didn't have a great er...experience at school - especially when it came to anything athletic. I got laughed at in P.E and what not. I wasn't the first person and I'm not the last to have my confidence kicked so let's not try to dwell on those issues too much. I try to move on but good God the voices keep coming back. :sus Judging eyes and conceited pointing. Everyone staring at me. Escalating in a calamitous maelstrom of droll arrogance reinforcing my physical ineptitude and just making me want to go back inside, give up on healthy living and instead attempting to finally get the Conference Call Shotgun in Borderlands 2. (Seriously, **** that drop rate)
All flippancy aside, I really would like to start running. I've been doing basic bodyweight compound exercises (Push ups, Pull ups etc.) the past few weeks and have noticed an improvement in my strength which has made me feel much better. However, I'd like to lose some body fat too and I think running (and good nutrition) would do well and really help my confidence. A new hobby and goal can keep me motivated/not depressed but I'm still too afraid to go outside due to shyness/anxiety or whatever you call it. So to anyone who's been in the same position (or a similar one) and moved on from it, how did you overcome your fears? Any kind of advice would be helpful so I can read it and repeat it in my head whenever I get second thoughts about lacing up my shoes.
tl;dr - I want to run in public but I'm scared - waaaaaaah.