random work thoughts..

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thinkstoomuch101

Discussion Starter · Nov 15, 2012

i don't expect very many posts with this thread..

but that's okay.. it's for everyone that works and just need a place to just post whatever's on their mind.

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ed1980

· #6,981 · 4 mo ago

It is my big online job interview tomorrow. I am worried because I really do need to get this job. If I can get this job, then I can finally move to Scotland and be with my girlfriend. That would be so awesome

It would be the start of an entirely new life for me, putting all of my problems behind me. I could actually make a success of myself with a new job and a partner. But... So much pressure. Interviews are so hard, and boring, and full of corporate jargon that I can never understand.

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JH1983

· #6,982 · 4 mo ago

strange_world said:
It is my big online job interview tomorrow. I am worried because I really do need to get this job. If I can get this job, then I can finally move to Scotland and be with my girlfriend. That would be so awesome

It would be the start of an entirely new life for me, putting all of my problems behind me. I could actually make a success of myself with a new job and a partner. But... So much pressure. Interviews are so hard, and boring, and full of corporate jargon that I can never understand.

Good luck!

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ed1980

· #6,983 · 4 mo ago

JH1983 said:
Good luck!

Thank you!

...But it didn't go very well. I'm 99% certain haven't got the job. I just finished the interview by MS Teams on my smartphone. I was so nervous. Really, literally, shaking with nerves. I'm still shaking. I can hardly type atm. That was one of the worst interviews I ever did. Oh well.

It's going to be really hard to move up to Scotland now. That was a wonderful opportunity. But never mind, I'm sure I'll do better next time.

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JH1983

· #6,984 · 4 mo ago

strange_world said:
Thank you!

...But it didn't go very well. I'm 99% certain haven't got the job. I just finished the interview by MS Teams on my smartphone. I was so nervous. Really, literally, shaking with nerves. I'm still shaking. I can hardly type atm. That was one of the worst interviews I ever did. Oh well.

It's going to be really hard to move up to Scotland now. That was a wonderful opportunity. But never mind, I'm sure I'll do better next time.

That sucks. I went to an interview last year and my heart rate was like 140 while I was sitting in my car about to go in. Makes it where I can hardly talk properly because my heart is beating so hard. I've been thinking about trying beta blockers before stuff like that. Heard good things on this forum about it.

ed1980

· #6,985 · 4 mo ago

JH1983 said:
That sucks. I went to an interview last year and my heart rate was like 140 while I was sitting in my car about to go in. Makes it where I can hardly talk properly because my heart is beating so hard. I've been thinking about trying beta blockers before stuff like that. Heard good things on this forum about it.

I know right, it feels like I just blew a major chance to finally start my new life in Scotland with my partner. But there will be other chances.

I used to take beta blockers a long time ago. They really work. The NHS doesn't prescribe them for anxiety any more so I can't now. But they worked wonders for me when I was allowed to take them. I'd definitely recommend them.

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radiation

· #6,986 · 4 mo ago

my boss has been hinting at my promotion all week. I really do hope I get it. I'll know next week but I'm going to be realistic and not get my hopes up too much.

bad baby

· #6,987 · 4 mo ago

New job is still triggering af. Being in the open-plan office drains me. Whenever the boss is out, my coworkers are so loud and unruly it's like a kindergarten playground. How can like 4 people make that much noise seriously?? For the first week or so I was full-on dissociating in my seat when that happened. I'm slightly better now, but I wonder if I will ever be able to get used to it and function "normally".

Some days in the office I'm so dissociated I can't even ask questions or speak properly, which is a symptom I thought I had gotten over. It's too bad since I actually like the work and can do reasonably well on Fridays when we wfh. Although I also don't want to fully wfh five days a week with barely any human contact like at my previous job.

So I considered quitting and I told my side-job boss and asked her about increasing my hours. It sort of backfired because she brought up the period last summer when I was sooooo out of it that I was handing in things late and barely completing one task per week.

She seemed to think it was because I was focusing too much on my other job and didn't have time, when in fact I was just mentally unwell and struggling with depression and insomnia and stupid coworkers gossiping about me and trying to get me to go out with the village idiot. But anyway. I said I understand that I needed to manage my time and communicate better, but I think she's not convinced.

So I've been sitting here for the past 3 hours debating in my head if I should just tell her about my mental health issues. I'm sick of people thinking I'm not trying hard enough when I literally struggle with the most basic things in life. If only she knew how much effort and pain it takes me to send a Slack message sometimes lol. But then if I told her she might decide that I'm a liability and fire me.

It sucks. It really sucks to be alive sometimes. I wish we didn't have to work, or at least didn't have to work 40 ****ing hours per week just to pay for survival, on top of doing chores and feeding ourselves and practising self-care and all that ****. It's too much. I'm just so ****ing exhausted, but if I don't do any of that somehow I just end up feeling even worse.

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bad baby

· #6,988 · 4 mo ago

Guess for now I'll white knuckle through the triggering job. I'm an adult now. It can't be worse than childhood trauma can it

8888

· #6,989 · 4 mo ago

Had some trouble with a job application. Hope I did okay.

JH1983

· #6,990 · 4 mo ago

bad baby said:
New job is still triggering af. Being in the open-plan office drains me. Whenever the boss is out, my coworkers are so loud and unruly it's like a kindergarten playground. How can like 4 people make that much noise seriously?? For the first week or so I was full-on dissociating in my seat when that happened. I'm slightly better now, but I wonder if I will ever be able to get used to it and function "normally".

Some days in the office I'm so dissociated I can't even ask questions or speak properly, which is a symptom I thought I had gotten over. It's too bad since I actually like the work and can do reasonably well on Fridays when we wfh. Although I also don't want to fully wfh five days a week with barely any human contact like at my previous job.

So I considered quitting and I told my side-job boss and asked her about increasing my hours. It sort of backfired because she brought up the period last summer when I was sooooo out of it that I was handing in things late and barely completing one task per week.

She seemed to think it was because I was focusing too much on my other job and didn't have time, when in fact I was just mentally unwell and struggling with depression and insomnia and stupid coworkers gossiping about me and trying to get me to go out with the village idiot. But anyway. I said I understand that I needed to manage my time and communicate better, but I think she's not convinced.

So I've been sitting here for the past 3 hours debating in my head if I should just tell her about my mental health issues. I'm sick of people thinking I'm not trying hard enough when I literally struggle with the most basic things in life. If only she knew how much effort and pain it takes me to send a Slack message sometimes lol. But then if I told her she might decide that I'm a liability and fire me.

It sucks. It really sucks to be alive sometimes. I wish we didn't have to work, or at least didn't have to work 40 *ing hours per week just to pay for survival, on top of doing chores and feeding ourselves and practising self-care and all that *. It's too much. I'm just so ****ing exhausted, but if I don't do any of that somehow I just end up feeling even worse.

I wish I could only work 40 hours a week. Well, I wish I could make what I make now by only working 40 hours or less instead of having to work the 45-55 hours I do now. You're right though even 40 hours a week is too much on top of everything else life demands.

My company actually has a position open right now that's only 35-37 hours a week, but it only pays $1250 a week. But honestly it's almost tempting to take it just to have the better work/life balance.

bad baby

· #6,991 · 4 mo ago

JH1983 said:
I wish I could only work 40 hours a week. Well, I wish I could make what I make now by only working 40 hours or less instead of having to work the 45-55 hours I do now. You're right though even 40 hours a week is too much on top of everything else life demands.

My company actually has a position open right now that's only 35-37 hours a week, but it only pays $1250 a week. But honestly it's almost tempting to take it just to have the better work/life balance.

I think $1250/week is actually more than what I'm making now lol (certainly more after currency conversion). I was on 37.5 hours at my old job but it also paid less. This is gonna sound really dumb but it was also too flexible with time and days off, and I ended up developing a really bad daily schedule where I would sleep at like 5 in the morning and wake up before noon to clock in and take too many unpaid days off that I just spent at home doomscrolling lol.

Can't decide if I want to quit still. This afternoon we had a meeting and I was sooo mentally checked out I could barely keep myself upright. I kept accidentally making eye contact with coworker and he must have thought wtf was wrong with me lol. I feel like I can learn stuff from my boss but maybe the worsening social anxiety and stress is not worth it :/

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Dissonance

· #6,992 · 4 mo ago

finally a day off

Citrine79

· #6,993 · 4 mo ago

Things are going to come to a head at work sooner than later because this way of doing things isn’t sustainable in the least. This whole situation has been handled poorly right from the start and has made my already poor motivation and effort get even worse. I am literally doing the barest of bare minimum required. And I realize that if I had been a little more uh, helpful or a “team player”, things may have gone a little smoother. But I have done that in the past…and it didn’t go well…not going down that road again. Other people can deal with the mess and will eventually figure it out somewhere down the road.

pillbugger

· #6,994 · 4 mo ago

The more I experience going to the dentist, the more I seriously consider becoming a dental hygienist or an orthodontist. Seems like a pretty relaxed job. The terrified patients can't even talk to you because their mouths are being worked on

. My tiny hands will finally be of use by easily sliding into the depths of their mouths! The dental assistants on the other hand are quite the chatty bunch though, often trying to break the silence with the more serious hygienist/orthodontist. Lastly, you get to cover your face with a mask for some anonymity. Oh and the salary is quite nice as well.

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alwaysrunning

· #6,995 · 4 mo ago

strange_world said:
People are noticing how anxious and panicky I am at my cleaning job. I keep getting comments about it and I don't know if they're particularly malicious comments, but people just keep saying "woah slow down!"

From experience of cleaning a hospital they just expect you to do too much. You cannot do so much and do it to the standard required. It's worse cleaning around patients too because they always want to talk and that slows things down. I time a supervisor came round and was telling me that I hadn't done something and I just said in a sad, stressed tone "I haven't got time to get it all done" infront of a patient.

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ed1980

· #6,996 · 4 mo ago

alwaysrunning said:
From experience of cleaning a hospital they just expect you to do too much. You cannot do so much and do it to the standard required. It's worse cleaning around patients too because they always want to talk and that slows things down. I time a supervisor came round and was telling me that I hadn't done something and I just said in a sad, stressed tone "I haven't got time to get it all done" infront of a patient.

Thanks, I'm glad it isn't just me who's had this experience with it. They are always wheeling patients in and out in beds, so there's no opportunity to actually get in the rooms and clean. So idk really. It's basically impossible to get it all done, even when I am fuelled by Monster energy drinks and running round like a headless chicken. Even a lady who has been working there 34 years said don't try to get it all done.

The nurses are all really busy. So patients in the waiting room at the clinics have to ask the cleaners for help with things, like being wheeled around in their chairs and help eating and stuff. Happy to help of course but it does take away time from what you're supposed to be doing.

bad baby

· #6,997 · 4 mo ago

Uh h hhh I feel like the nerd sitting at the "cool kids" table at work every day. I'm starting to feel like these extraverts don't do as much work or learn as much info as the socially awkward geeky guys at my previous workplace. I almost never see them sit quietly for more than 5 minutes unless the boss is around and in one of his "moods".

Something I've noticed is they are all very good at spitballing and can talk at length on command about nothing. I have one coworker that works at a lightning pace and they're always asking her stuff that I feel like they can just read/search up on by themselves. My boss keeps telling me to make a good wiki and document everything because he knows it's one of my strengths, but in my head I'm thinking like, "These guys are not going to read it lol."

Sometimes I ask one of them a question and they go on a super long info dump, usually about how some other person dropped the ball and made their work a hell. I'm just kind of nodding along thinking, "That's not what I asked, get to the point lol." I'm almost scared to ask them in-depth, precise questions (also one of my strengths), because I'm worried that it might be something they don't know and that would be awkward.

I feel like this is one of those places were everyone has too much life outside of work to give a R's A about doing a good job. At this point I can't really tell if the quality of the work is actually high or if they just talk a very good talk, maybe a mix of both.

What's clear to me is that folks whose brains are people-oriented operate in a whole different way from those of us who are task-oriented. They catch a lot of things that I miss, and vice versa. I just wish it wasn't so draining.

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987900

· #6,998 · 4 mo ago

bad baby said:
Uh h hhh I feel like the nerd sitting at the "cool kids" table at work every day. I'm starting to feel like these extraverts don't do as much work or learn as much info as the socially awkward geeky guys at my previous workplace. I almost never see them sit quietly for more than 5 minutes unless the boss is around and in one of his "moods".

Something I've noticed is they are all very good at spitballing and can talk at length on command about nothing. I have one coworker that works at a lightning pace and they're always asking her stuff that I feel like they can just read/search up on by themselves. My boss keeps telling me to make a good wiki and document everything because he knows it's one of my strengths, but in my head I'm thinking like, "These guys are not going to read it lol."

Sometimes I ask one of them a question and they go on a super long info dump, usually about how some other person dropped the ball and made their work a hell. I'm just kind of nodding along thinking, "That's not what I asked, get to the point lol." I'm almost scared to ask them in-depth, precise questions (also one of my strengths), because I'm worried that it might be something they don't know and that would be awkward.

I feel like this is one of those places were everyone has too much life outside of work to give a R's A about doing a good job. At this point I can't really tell if the quality of the work is actually high or if they just talk a very good talk, maybe a mix of both.

What's clear to me is that folks whose brains are people-oriented operate in a whole different way from those of us who are task-oriented. They catch a lot of things that I miss, and vice versa. I just wish it wasn't so draining.

bless you because that sounds like a nightmare

bad baby

· #6,999 · 4 mo ago

PeanutButterOatBars said:
bless you because that sounds like a nightmare

Well i mean, i sort of expected some degree of not fitting in. i just underestimated how hyperactive and shouty my coworkers would be lol.
before this i was in a rut of being super isolated and wasting away in my last job, and not knowing how to pull myself out of it. So I picked the lesser of two evils, I guess.
The main thing now is if my stress levels don't come back down to a baseline soon, i worry that my health will suffer.

987900

· #7,000 · 4 mo ago

bad baby said:
Well i mean, i sort of expected some degree of not fitting in. i just underestimated how hyperactive and shouty my coworkers would be lol.
before this i was in a rut of being super isolated and wasting away in my last job, and not knowing how to pull myself out of it. So I picked the lesser of two evils, I guess.
The main thing now is if my stress levels don't come back down to a baseline soon, i worry that my health will suffer.

Have you ever tried breathing sessions and meditation type practices? If so, how did they work out for you? As far as helping with stress.

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