Seems like I'm calling out every month now.
I am more nervous about the awkwardness to follow now. For the duration we are remain coworkers lol.Pfft...that's sad. :no Must've felt lousy.
I think you are in the wrong Random Thought thread. This is work-related one lol. But right who cares?I take comfort in the presence of my friends. I don't feel so socially anxious if they're there. For the last 3 or 4 months I've been with friends basically every day. Yesterday there was a fire drill and I was briefly all alone, and felt stupidly and pathetically self conscious to be around others. I tell myself that they're probably not looking at me, that does very little to make the irrational part of my brain feel better.
I want to move out, I won't know anyone then. What am I going to do when that happens? I would like to get over it, or learn to deal. I feel like so far exposure is the only way to make the feelings go away. It's so easy to isolate yourself, even if for a little while [I've been mostly in my room these past few days] and that makes things worse, definitely.
I'm going to go get pizza, gummy worms and some dip. I bought food so I wouldn't have to leave the room, but I should definitely leave the room.