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This is going to be long and rambling -- I never post anything online and have never shared this much information about my situation, but I think this may some people who suffer the fear of public speaking:
I actually learned about Propranolol from reading these formats. In high school I had zero anxiety about public speaking. Once I started college, my level of anxiety increased. I can still remember the first time I was in class reading something and my voice locked up on me, it was extrememly embarassing. From that moment on, I found it hard to concentrate on things, because half my time would be spent worrying about having to speak in class. I would sign up for classes and then drop those classes where I would have to give a presentation because my fear was so great. Those times I did have to speak, my voice was shaky, I turned red, and my hands would shake.......it was horrible. I even had this experience during the beginning of the semester where you said your name and a little about yourself. I graduated school about 7 years ago, and just went back for my MBA. About two months ago, I had a similar experience during a 30 second presentation for marketing. The class has 55 people in it, and I was embarassed. Well this past weekend, we had our group presentation for our final project and I had to speak for about 5 minutes. In the past, I would have figured out some way to get out of speaking -- I mean there was no way I could hold it together long enough to speak for 5 minutes.
So I started looking around and found this information on Propranolol about two months ago after my most recent experience, and knowing I had this presentation coming up. I saw my doctor about a month ago and talked to him about taking this drug. I love it how people tell you that you don't need to take anything, and you just need to practice a couple of times, or address the reason for the fear -- these people have NO idea what we go thru, the anxiety of public speaking, the panic, and embarassment and humiliation. he gave me the perscription and I tried it at home one night just to make sure I wasn't going to get sick.....I felt a little drowsy, but nothing significant.
Well this past weekend came, and I practice my presentation over and over again. I started taking the drug about an hour before the presentation but didn't know whether it would actually work. I was still nervous before I started talking because I had no idea if it would work or not, and knew that if it didn't work I was in serious trouble. I had vision of myself running out of the classroom, or someone in my group having to take over for me because my voice locked up. Once I started talking a miracle happened...........my voice was not shaking even a little bit. I was able to make hand gestures and point at the screen - where in the past my hands would be shaking so bad I would have to hold on to the podium or put in my pocket. I didn't feel the need to rush through it, I could pause and use emphasis on words.
When I was done with my part, I felt so proud of myself, I felt like I was cured!! I was so relieved that things went well, and feel more confident to do this again in my other classes. I only wish I would have discovered while I was an undergrad, I think I would have done exponentially better in class and probably graduated a year sooner. My presentation was yesterday and I am still thinking about how amazing I feel that I really did this, and had it go as well as it did. Those who don't know what I have gone thru, will probably never be able to understand how painful it is to have this fear and how crippling it can be in these situations. To those that have this fear and need some help -- I HIGHLY recommend trying Propranolol, it can change your life !!
I actually learned about Propranolol from reading these formats. In high school I had zero anxiety about public speaking. Once I started college, my level of anxiety increased. I can still remember the first time I was in class reading something and my voice locked up on me, it was extrememly embarassing. From that moment on, I found it hard to concentrate on things, because half my time would be spent worrying about having to speak in class. I would sign up for classes and then drop those classes where I would have to give a presentation because my fear was so great. Those times I did have to speak, my voice was shaky, I turned red, and my hands would shake.......it was horrible. I even had this experience during the beginning of the semester where you said your name and a little about yourself. I graduated school about 7 years ago, and just went back for my MBA. About two months ago, I had a similar experience during a 30 second presentation for marketing. The class has 55 people in it, and I was embarassed. Well this past weekend, we had our group presentation for our final project and I had to speak for about 5 minutes. In the past, I would have figured out some way to get out of speaking -- I mean there was no way I could hold it together long enough to speak for 5 minutes.
So I started looking around and found this information on Propranolol about two months ago after my most recent experience, and knowing I had this presentation coming up. I saw my doctor about a month ago and talked to him about taking this drug. I love it how people tell you that you don't need to take anything, and you just need to practice a couple of times, or address the reason for the fear -- these people have NO idea what we go thru, the anxiety of public speaking, the panic, and embarassment and humiliation. he gave me the perscription and I tried it at home one night just to make sure I wasn't going to get sick.....I felt a little drowsy, but nothing significant.
Well this past weekend came, and I practice my presentation over and over again. I started taking the drug about an hour before the presentation but didn't know whether it would actually work. I was still nervous before I started talking because I had no idea if it would work or not, and knew that if it didn't work I was in serious trouble. I had vision of myself running out of the classroom, or someone in my group having to take over for me because my voice locked up. Once I started talking a miracle happened...........my voice was not shaking even a little bit. I was able to make hand gestures and point at the screen - where in the past my hands would be shaking so bad I would have to hold on to the podium or put in my pocket. I didn't feel the need to rush through it, I could pause and use emphasis on words.
When I was done with my part, I felt so proud of myself, I felt like I was cured!! I was so relieved that things went well, and feel more confident to do this again in my other classes. I only wish I would have discovered while I was an undergrad, I think I would have done exponentially better in class and probably graduated a year sooner. My presentation was yesterday and I am still thinking about how amazing I feel that I really did this, and had it go as well as it did. Those who don't know what I have gone thru, will probably never be able to understand how painful it is to have this fear and how crippling it can be in these situations. To those that have this fear and need some help -- I HIGHLY recommend trying Propranolol, it can change your life !!