Little Winged One
Lately I've been attempting to have a better attitude/outlook.- I have been trying to access the parts of my nature that are more positive-You know-the whole,"people are as happy as they make up there minds to be"-philosphy. I've been initiating conversations,not just suffering thru them.- Smiling and looking people in the eye-not pretending great interest in the rock on the ground. Making friendly comments about their dogs,kids,etc.etc. All with the hope that this better human being with the sunny personality is who I truely am or could become.- It's starting to wear me down - it just feels like another burden. Maybe denying my truer nature is not the way to go.- Maybe I'm supposed to be the one that's outside of the pack,the one that does'nt talk,the one that's not the friendlest person around. The happy,happy,happy stuff is feeling more and more like a constraint - can anybody relate to this? Maybe for some of us the happy,happy stuff is unnatural. Are we just beating ourselves up,when maybe we should learn to make friends with the beast. What do you think??