I really am in need of the power of prayer right now.
My husband had testicle cancer in 2003. Had intensive chemo for 12 weeks, and now check ups every 8 months to 1 year. Our time for a check up is in 2 weeks, but we need to go sooner like tommorow, the 28th April. Few days ago, we got in panic mode, he doesnt feel completely right in the tummy, and feels tenderness in that area. The life just drained right out of the both of us. We were taken straight back in a flash. I nearly collapsed with fear, and he was in a dripping sweat with fear. He has been doing alot of digging in the garden and I pray that what he feels is muscle soreness from that. I pray that we are wrong in what we are fearing. This feeling of doom is so so dark. I might have to take a xanax to get through the doctors visit. I can hardly breathe in there.