I sometimes wonder if this is a big part of my problem. I have a hard time accepting failure on an external basis - i.e. someone else rejecting me or making mistakes in front of other people. I dont know how to accept this, AND keep your self esteem and self confidence in tact...it appears to me that failure = unworthiness in some aspect. And I guess I have high standards for myself because maybe on some level I dont feel worthy of attention or to be "equal" to other people socially until I meet my own standards, in looks, social skills etc. So in a way, maybe I feel like Im hiding and staying withdrawn waiting till Im "ready" and at to the level I feel I NEED to be before Im allowed to be outgoing and confident. Does this make any sense?