[ThatLonerChick]

Okay so my tutor asked me out on some dates and I started to like the guy and we went back to his place and was watching a movie and cuddling on the couch and stuff- which I really like doing..
Then he asked me to be his girlfriend when we were on the couch and stuff and I said yeah because it just felt so right.
But the thing is... I feel trapped everytime I get into a relationship..
Idk wtf is wrong with me but I just get so distant.. and feel so smothered
He said I love you today in a text message... I hope he didnt expect me to say it back because it's not really how I feel..
Ugh... I know I like him because I did before but why do I feel so repulsed???!!

 

[ThatLonerChick]

I guess I am his first girlfriend.. I mean we've been dating for about a month now

 

[ThatLonerChick]

Mm...yeh...just gotta be honest. Also, relationships aren't something so frivolous that you should just jump into them on a whim...make sure you really like the guy next time. You can still have a fwb or just a friend in the guy, it doesn't have to be a relationship. I jumped into something serious with my ex (mostly because I wanted sex and didn't want to give that up) and I felt trapped every day for like 8 months...it was torture. In retrospect, it was a good learning experience, but I wouldn't want to go through that ever again. Eventually just had to be honest with her and tell her it wasn't going to work out.

That sounds terrible..
but I guess the main reason i said yes is because I just loved having a cuddle buddy... but I am not gonna drag this on any longer.